Happenings

Maybe this time I can get this finished before I am interrupted. Dan went to his doctor appointment on thursday. The incisions are healing great. The doctor told Dan that Emma is doing a great job keeping them cleaned so they can heal so nicely. He gave Dan a prescription for more percosets and more valiums. The driver from AIG then drove Dan over to the Betty Bacarach Rehabilitation Center. No ambulance because workmans comp wouldn't cover it and Dan would of been billed for it. Dan get's to the rehab center, get's to look around, see's the head doctor and is told what I had already told Dan. He is suffering from PTSD and other issues from the fall and his personnal life and does need therapy for that also. But......................................He cannot be admitted then because they don't have a bed open until monday. It took alot of talking to get Dan to even go and they say there's no bed until monday. So his driver brings him home. Each day his mental health is getting worse. I mean it's so bad Emma wants to call 911 just to get him out of the house into any place that can help him. Yesterday it was bad. He kept saying give me a gun, I can't do this anymore. Then it was I need tequila. Someone please go get me a bottle please. They all said no. He kept asking and asking. Emma said he talked to poppop Bill and his sponser from AA, he asked later again if someone would get him a bottle. Emma told him to call my Mom Dan. Ask her to go get you a bottle of tequila. His reply, No way, she'd kill me if I asked her, lol. That's because yesterday I told him if he even picks up a drink I would hurt him so bad that the pain he is in now would be nothing compared to the pain I would cause him. He hasn't asked for a drink since she told him to call me. He has 6 years of sobriety and I will not let him screw it up. Monday cannot come soon enough. He needs both physical and mental therapy right away.

Emma is so worn out, depressed, aggrivated, emotionally drained. But she doesn't let Dan see it. While I was staying there we would get the kids in bed by 9pm, then she'd get Dan showered, dressed and medicated and get him into bed. I'd make a pot of coffee and Emma and I would sit in the kitchen at the table til 2am some nights talking. It was nice sitting up just the 2 of us having some mommy and me time. It's been so long since we have done that. I really enjoyed it.

I would get up around 7, put on a pot of coffee, get dressed, then get Rebecca up and dressed. Take her to school. Come back to Emma's, get Marissa and Daniel fed, and by that time Emma was up and helping Dan to get up and get him set up on the couch with his coffee and medication. Then I'd take him in a bowl of cereal and or fruit so he could eat something taking that medicine.

I was there 4 days, and when I came home I was drained. Jim missed us. He kept asking when we were coming home. He didn't like being home alone after the first 2 days. Rebecca missed her daddy. So since my nephew had returned thursday morning from North Carolina seeing his son, I was able to come home because he said he would help Emma. He's been fixing the meals, doing dishes, taking out the trash, helping with the kids.

Then Emma's washer breaks down. Dan was on the phone with a union rep when Emma said loudly the washer is shot. Well, that union rep, came over took Emma to sears had her pick out a washer and dryer, paid for it in cash and she is waiting for it to be delivered now. Father Tim called yesterday while I was at her house asking if she needed anything. She said food and diapers. He sent Sister Mary over with 6 gift cards from ShopRite for 25.00 each. So Emma will be going grocery shopping tonight. My niece Katie is taking her. I had to take Emma to Cinnaminson, NJ this morning to get Dan's medication refilled.

Well, I guess that's about it on the update. Anymore happenings and I'll post it all. Jim is back now so I will go. Hope your all having a good day. I will try to get to your journals this weekend. I am so behind.

Love to all.....................Cindy