Sunday, December 14, 2008

STRESS, NERVES, WORRIED, SCARED


So, much has happened and will be happening, that I have had to keep it all written down so not to forget any of it. Since I started back to the doctor's I have had blood work done, ultra sound of my heart, and yesterday a Cat Scan to see if my cancer has returned. Catscan results will be ready by end of week. Ultrasound of heart showed something wrong, doctor could only te4ll me my heart isn't beating at a regular beat. Said results will show what is wrong, so we're waiting for that report. This tuesday I'm being electricuted with an EMG Test and wednesday I'm going to have my boobs flattened like a pancake. Nurse Kratchet at cat scan couldn't find a vein and poked my right arm 3 times, so had to call in an ER nurse to get a vein. She got one on top of my hand to inject the dye into me. Also had to drink a quart of this horrible tasting stuff, man it was awful, yuck!!!!!!!!!!! Today both my legs went numb on me and I fell twice. Both arms also went numb, with slight pin needle sensations stabbing me in left side of chest. Oh the wonders of growing old, huh? Not only am I stressed out to the "T" but I am a nervous wreck and worried big time. Is my heart dieing, is my cancer back, will mammogram show something wrong? Needless to say I am doing alot of thinking and a whole lot of praying over all this. Am I scared? Yes, I am terrified it's all going to be bad news. I am now on BP meds, water pill, antidepressant and cholesterol/sugar pill.
On a good note, I'd like to thank LisaJo, Jeannette & her hubby Mike, Nancy, Lisa, Sybil, Missie for the lovely christmas cards I have received over the past week. Thank you so much, each one means so much to me. I hope and pray you all have a wonderful christmas and an even better new year. I will keep you updated on what's happening with me.
GOOD NIGHT AND GOD BLESS EACH OF YOU..................Cindy xoxoxo

22 comments:

  1. I am so sorry to hear about all your health problems. My thoughts and prayers are with you and I know it will all turn out ok. Hugs, Detje Bea

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  2. You make sure you come back and tell us what is going on...i know it is so much to worry about but TRY not to....if there is an issue with your heart they will help you...these tests give you anxiety...i love you and i will pray!

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  3. Oh Cindy I hope they can figure out the heart thing soon. You'd better be careful with the falling and not hurt yourself another way. I will be praying for you and please let us know something even if only a quick line. You have a card on the way from me too.
    Love you, Chrissie

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  4. WILL KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS...TRY NOT TO WORRY TOO MUCH ALTHOUGH I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND...

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  5. BY THE WAY I SENT YOU A CARD BUT THINK IT WENT TO YOUR OLD PLACE

    :-(

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  6. Dear cindy,
    It's natural for you to feel as you do when you have no answers to hand yet. I pray that the scans only show normal signs and that your worst fears are not realised.
    You will be in my prayers and thoughts.
    I hope your symptoms subside and you get a clean bill of health soon.

    God bless you and keep you safe.
    Hugs
    Jeanie xxxx

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  7. my dear friend, & sister, standing with you in prayer.
    i am here for you, if you need me, just email.
    i know you're scared right now, but try to turn it over to God, He is in control.
    Don't worry too much, you don't even have any results yet, wait till all the tests are in, could be something not near as serious as you think. {{}}
    i love you dear one.
    huggies...

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  8. Awwwww hon, praying you feel better soon and you get some answers, Love You Lisa XO

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  9. Hi Cindy,,,well results don;t sound that good...but you are a surviver and whatever lies ahead you will never be alone and all things will work out for the good of you and your lovely family. Please keep us up to date as often as possible Much Love Sybil xx

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  10. Sending some hugs your way! I'll keep you in my prayers!

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  11. Sending up prayers that you will be ok. Helen

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  12. My Dear Cindy, you will be in my thought and prayers and my fingers will definitely be crossed for you. I am worried sick as well at the moment as I get some tests results tomorrow and things have not been going well for myself and Mike lately. My tests are nothing like yours but I know only too well that feeling of fear, the worry, the apprehension. There is little either of us can do except pray. I will not tell you to look on the bright side because I am never able to when faced with medical things. Just know that my love is with you.
    Your lovely Christmas card arrived today, thank you so very much. Big hugs xxxxxx

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  13. BOY, your family is just not getting a break. I am praying that all the tests come back fine and all is well. This getting old is TOUGH and sometimes we get these crazy things that turn out to be nothing. You will be in all my thoughts and prayers and please let us know when you get all the results.

    ((hugs))
    Jeanne

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  14. I am just stopping by to let you know that you are in my prayers. So sorry you have to go through all those terrible tests to find out what's wrong. Take care and remember you have a lot of people that do care and are praying for you. 'On Ya'-ma

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  15. Cindy,
    So sorry to hear that you are being used as a pin cushion! Seriously, I know how it is with the missing veins. I have always had wonderful huge veins but when I hasd to go by ambulance to a hospital over 30 miloes away, the emts never found a good vein an when I got to the hospital, it was the same thing!
    Hope all the tests turn out normal for you...Please keep us updated, ok?
    love and GOD BLESS,
    carlene

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  16. I am sorry to hear that your state of health is scaring you right now. I am hoping that you will get through all this testing without bad news. Yes, it just seems to be our fate when we get so far down the road to get scared over what is going on in our bodies. I sent Dan and Emma and family a card, wishing them well, as I do you. Gerry

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  17. Sorry to hear about your health problems. I hope rverything turns out ok for you. I will keep you in my prayers

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  18. Dear Cindy, of course you're scared and worried, and stressed. I'm sorry to hear of these things, and certainly hope that they improve, and SOON! God be with you -- please keep us updated.

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  19. Thank you for the Christmas card this week! So sweet and I'll save it as always. Means so much to me. I sent one to your P.O. Box. I hope you get it.

    You have to know you're in much prayer for healing. Please keep us informed.

    Love, Nelishia

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  20. Iam so sorry you are going through all this.I am sending up prayers that all will turn out well for you.Know that i care and wish you the best.
    Hugs!!
    connie

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  21. Cindy I am so very very sorry. I know that fear believe me. Sending good vibes, strength, and prayers your way.
    love ya

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  22. I am here from from the call to support site, hope everything turns out for the good. You will be in my prayers.

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