Thursday, October 25, 2007

Thank you all

I want to thank all of you for all your prayers, emails and ecards. It means so much to me to have such wonderful friends/family here in jland and outside jland. I love you all so much.

Today was such a hard day. It seemed like everything made me cry. I held my granddaughter and cried, because my sister Susie will never get to meet her. I went grocery shopping and in the bakery department I spotted a box of Suzie Q cakes, and yep I cried. I had 3 people ask me today how I was doing and before I could say anything I started crying.

I still can't believe Susie is gone. I keep hoping this is all a bad dream and when I wake up she will still be here. I wanna grab the phone and call her and say, Hey baby girl, it's me your big sis. My body is numb and I feel as though I am walking or moving in slow motion. My eyes burn from all the tears shed, and are so swollen and red.

Yes, Susie was my half sister, but that did not matter to me. What matters is that she was my sister and I couldn't love her anymore then I already did. Susie was also the author of the journal Strawberry Patch. My sister loved the characters of strawberry shortcake. She got me started journaling, and I am so thankful that she did. I have made really wonderful friends here in jland, and I feel so welcomed here. I too was saddened when Susie left jland.

I would do anything to get my sister back in this world, but I know she is happy up in heaven. I bet she's right there along side my niece Sandy helping her care for my grandson Michael and my nephew Bryant.

Rest in Peace my baby sister. You will forever be in my heart and thoughts.

Cindy

39 comments:

  1. Cindy your sister was one the first ladies to comment in my Journal! Remember how she had her j all decked out in strawberry short cake girls! I missed her when she left j land too! :(
    I am so sorry for you loss! you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

    Sharon

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  2. ((((((((((((((((((( SIS ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))I have worried and thought of you all day running around. I wanted to call but was afraid to, so I didn't, maybe I should have, I don't know, I wanted to tell you I love you and your not alone.

    YOUR cyber SIS

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  3. i love ya sissy(((((((((((((((((Cindy)))))))))))))we're all here for yas and don't you forget it.....muahhhhhhhhh

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  4. Awwwwww hon I am so sorry for you, if you ever need to talk or anything I'm here for you always, sending you a card tommorow, Love You Lisa XOXO (((((((((((((( Cindy )))))))))))))))))))))))))

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  5. She was too young!!  I'm here for you!
    Missie

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  6. I read about this on Chrissy's journal and I had to come bye to say my condolences to you.  I wish there is something I could do to turn back the hands of time and bring her back to you.  My heart is crying for you.  I don't know what I would do without my sister.  I wish I had something profound to tell you but I don't.  Take care of yourself and your family and think of the good times you had with her.

    Allison

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  7. Yes! I do remember her, Cindy!  I read her journal faithfully, and she and I shared a love of ghost's and whatnot.  She loved to take pictures of old cemetaries, and try and catch orbs in the pictures.  I'm sure that was her.  It's been awhile since she left Jland, and I do get confused sometimes, but I do remember Susie and her love of the unknown.
    I am so so sorry about this, Cindy.  Bless your heart,  I know this is killing  you inside.  Please know that you have the thoughts and prayers of myself and others, here, to help you get through this trying and sad time..

    God Bless
    Hugs
    Jackie

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  8. Cindy,
    I am so,so sorry for the  loss  your of your sister. Please forgive me for my last comment, I referred to her as your friend, thougth I know you were friends and also sister's. When you referred to her as sister, I had mistakenly thought she was a friend you felt  as a sister of love. I am so, so sorry for your loss. I wish there were something I could do for you and your family. If there is, Please let me know. You are loved! And so many of us in J-land care very deeply about you. Please e mail me me if you want to talk.

    God Bless you and Your's.
    Toodle's,
    Tia

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  9. awwwww it must be the hardest thing in the world Im so sorry it must really not seem real

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  10. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your sister. I didn't put two and two together until you mentioned that she had the journal Strawberry Patch. She was one of the first journals I started reading. She made me a tag and I still have it on the side of my journal. It says I love my j-land friends and it has the characters of Strawberry Shortcake.  Again, I am so sorry. Hugs, Detje Bea

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  11. yes I used to read your sister's journal. I think that's how I found your journal. I was very sad when she left J-land. I often was going to ask  you how she was but I just never did. I'm so very very sorry. She was a wonderful lady just like you are. Hugs and many prayers to you.

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  12. I didn't list the name of her journal because all I could remember was njmom72 her old s/n. I thought the name was Strawberry Patch. My thought are with everyone in the family. Like I said before if it hadn't been for Susan I would never have met you so for that I am very thankful to her. She was an awesome jounaler and her words came across with such pride over her family. Those girls meant everything to her. My heart is so heavy tonight thinking of them. I can't imagine growing up without your mother there. I know you had to do it too, but what a hard thing for a girl to do.
    Big Hugs and Lots of Love going your way, Chrissie

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  13. Hi Cindy,  I am so sorry for the loss in your life.  How very sad : (
    I hope you feel better soon.

    Bethe    

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  14. This is heartbreaking.My prayers go out to you and all your family.Take Care God Bless Kath
    astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

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  15. Please know how sorry I am for your loss.
    God bless,
    Sug

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  16. I haven't forgotten you.  You're in my heart and in my prayers.

    Bless you,
    Nelishia
    http://journals.aol.com/nelishianatl/PrayingandBelieving/

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  17. I am so sorry for your loss.
    Barbara

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  18. I'm like you in that I have half sisters.  I never think of them like that though. To me, they are sisters. Even my stepsister is thought of like that.
    I'm so sorry you lost her. Try and relax tonight. If you can't sleep, then read or watch a quiet late night movie.
    Love ya MUCH,
    Pam xoxox

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  19. Such a heartbreaking entry, I could FEEL your pain through your words.... I'm so sorry, we're here for you!!

    Joann

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  20. I pray God will bring you peace and comfort during this time, and rest.  I hope you will take care of you during this time, its easy to forget to do it during times of crisis.  I am glad you have such fond memories of your sister!  Bless you.

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  21. I know what you're going through, I lost all three of my sisters. It's going to take time, grief is a stubborn emotion. I used to read Susie's journal, I was sorry when she stopped. You have many friends here to help you over this awful time, just take it one day at a time. Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels/  

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  22. God Bless you Cindy, I pray that God sends the strength you need to get through this.
    Ellen

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  23. There are no words to say how sorry I am for your loss ~ eeping you in my Prayers ~ Ally x

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  24. I'm thinking about you as you go through this difficult time.  Love, Linda

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  25. I'm so sorry to hear about your sister. My heart goes out to you and your whole family!!!

    Hugs,
    Carol

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  26. I wish you continued strength to come to terms with your loss.

    Guido
    http://journals.aol.co.uk/pharmolo/NorthernTrip

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  27. Oh my dear friend, I just got your e-mail and was stunned to hear of the death of your beloved Susie.  My heart goes out to you all at this awful time.  Such a young age.  Yes, I remember the strawberry shortcake journal, I think I visited once or twice and she came to me.  I just feel so sad for you all and you know that my thoughts and my prayers are with you.  I am sure your sister will watch over you.  God bless you all and if you need anyone to talk to, I am here. xxxxxxxx

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  28. I am so terribly sorry for your loss Cindy...I don't know what else to say....I'm so shocked..
    Lyn

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  29. Cindy,  So sorry to hear about your sister.  My thoughts are with you.
    Michelle

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  30. Cindy, I just feel so bad for you.  It's hard to know what to say to someone when they are grieving except that I'm here for you.  Gosh, I really loved Susan.  She was so sweet and I was extremely sad when she left JLand.  I always looked for her to come back.  She was such a good mother to the girls. She always talked about them.  And her journal was so beautiful.  I made her some graphics, I'll have to find them.  I think I have a quilt square that she requested.  I'll put it up in my journal.  It has strawberry shortcake on it of course. : )  Love you honey and take it easy.  And may the Lord look down on you all. Shelly

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  31. {{{Cindy}}} I pray that you can get more strength for you. My heart just goes out you my friend. God Bless you!
    Lisa

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  32. Cindy,

    I am so sorry you lost your sister.  It sounds to me that the two of you shared a very loving, close relationship, something many family members never experience.  Keep your faith, and remember all the good times.  You'll be reunited one day!

    Hugs from Minnesota

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  33. You don't know me, but I'm a journal buddy of Missie's and I wanted to come over and tell you how sorry I am that you have had this loss.  My own sister is 34 and 10 years younger and I can't stand to think of how it would feel to lose her.  So big hugs and prayers your way.  
    Sonya
    http://journals.aol.com/bookncoffee/MySouthernHome/

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  34. Dear Cindy, I know how terrible you must feel having lost two dear sisters myself.   I know its going to be difficult for you to come to terms with this.  Take things very gently.  Hugs, Tells x

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  35. There is no 'half' in the heart.  I am so sorry... more prayers coming.

    be well,
    Dawn
    http://journals.aol.com/princesssaurora/CarpeDiem/

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  36. please know I'm here for you if you need me cindy
    I'm ususally online so dont be scared to im
    love,
    emily

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  37. i am so sorry:( please know you are in my thoughts and prayers

    Deb

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  38. ((((((((hugs across the ocean )))))))....love Jan xx

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  39. I remember reading her and enjoying everything she had to say. Thank God you came along to J land and we have become friends.
    LOve,lisa

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