Tuesday, September 12, 2006

That was me when......

When I wrote the story of what I went through with Cancer I did'nt have a pic to add to it. But thanks to my cousin Carmen for scanning a pic for me and emailing it to me, I now have one. I warn you I am not a pretty sight. I was swollen and so discolored. I looked like I was beat up. The swelling is'nt even half of what it was the couple month's after surgery. This pic was taken in Sept 2005, on Rebecca's 4th birthday. My hair was almost gone then. I felt like crap that day and could'nt enjoy a piece of cake, but I did put the candles on it for her. Chemo had a nasty side effect, one I hated. I would swell, hands and legs terribly. Maybe it was all that saline solution I got all the time, lol. I can't use salt, it does make me swell up. Anyways here I am. Do you see why I said I felt like a freak? Cause I really did feel like one.

Awful looking huh? I hope I never have to go through that again. It was the worst 2 years of my life.

 

CINDY

18 comments:

  1. Sweetie, you don't look bad...considering all you went through! In the eyes of the Lord, & in my eyes...you're beautiful!
    Hugs, Sugar

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  2. I think you are one brave person!!! ANd you don't look so bad...you look like a child of God!
    love ya,
    carlene

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  3. you look very good:) i admire you

    Deb

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  4. you're stilla beautiful lady sis.......Ithank GOD that you're still here forme to tell you that.....i love ya muahhhhhhh your sister in law to be Nancy

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  5. I'm glad you made it sweety.  You went through hell but you went all the way through and didn't stop.  Proud of you very much.
    Nelishia

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  6. You have fought the battle of your life.  You looked sick there but not as bad as you described at all!  Thank goodness you made it through.
    Pam

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  7. It is the twinkle in your eyes that I see.  A loving mother celebrating with her child even though she herself is ill.  God bless you!  You are an awesome inspiration to me.  Love you, Barbara

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  8. Your picture is lovely ~ and for all you were going through at that time you look happy ~ so glad you are here to tell us about it ~ Ally

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  9. Lovely pic hun.....considering what you were going through, you look great!!

    Lv Stevie
    xxx

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  10. I can still see that your eyes are smiling! Beautiful! :o)
    Lisa

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  11. you have been through so much and yet you were smiling. You are a wonderful beautiful person. Hugs.

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  12. YOU FOUGHT REALLY HARD TO WIN YOUR BATTLE AND I THINK YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL. I AM SO HAPPY THAT YOU WERE ABLE TO BEAT IT

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  13. I think it is a lovely picture. I shows a brave, smiling and determined lady.  So glad that is all behind you. God bless you.

    http://journals.aol.co.uk/jeanno43/JeannettesJottings/

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  14. Cindy, darlin.. you are alive!  That is what matters!  When I was going through my chemo, I looked like crap too!  No hair ANYWHERE!  Not an attractive sight.  I know what you mean about the bloating, and the after tastes that the chemo leaves in your mouth.  Blech.  But.. WE ARE ALIVE!  We lived to tell our story!  So, you know what?  You are beautiful Cindy!  :)

    Hugs
    Jackie

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  15. I hope you never have to go thru that again too!!
    Missie

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  16. You were smiling though! Fighters make it through :)
    Hugs
    Ang

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  17. You know what you may have felt like crap that day, but what a joyous day it was that you were sitting there able to enjoy your baby's birthday. You were using everything inside you to live. I hope that you never have to go through that again too.
    Take care, Chrissie

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  18. Your a true mom, smiling through the pain...You deserve an award!!!
    http://journals.aol.com/cgferrer71/christineg34/
    Christine

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