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Here it is, Halloween night, when all the little ghosts and goblins, go door to door hoping for a delicious treat to be dropped into their bag or bucket. All along hoping for that chocolate bar, their little taste buds enjoy so much. Going door to door, cautious of a frightening scare where a ghost or even the boogie man jumps out to scare them. Who will answer the door after they knock? Will it be a witch, a demon, or wolfman himself. The faces of the little ones when you open the door is priceless, because they are in fear they will be terrified into running away. No goblins at my house tonight. No candy being passed out. I can't do the 14 steps up and down everytime the doorbell rings. My my lil trick or treater finally made up her mind 2 hours before it was time to get ready what she wanted to be. We had last years witch costume, we had Dorothy from the wizard of Oz outfit, we had a hula costume and we had the butterfly fairy, but did she make it easy on mommy and wear one of those outfits? Noooooooooooo.......she wants to be a scarecrow. I tell her no I don't have time to fix up a scare crow costume. She goes running into the bedroom comes out carrying her coverall's and says I can wear these. I say no again, she says, paleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeze mommy. Grrrrrrrrrrr, ok. I search for some material, scizzors, needle and thread, cut out and sew patches, make a trim around bottom of pant legs, find a long sleeved red shirt to make patche's, make hair bow's to match the patches, put hair in 2 braided pig tails, color cheeks with some lip stick and wallahhhhhhhhhh, girl scarecrow. Only stabbed myself drawing blood 6 times with that darn sewing needle, lol. But she looked adorable, daddy smiled and said she looked great, and Rebecca was happy. She hugged me and said, Thank you for my scarecrow costume, your the best mommy ever. Awwww, so the 6 needle stabs were worth it. I took 2 pictures of the kids together, but they came out horrible as you will soon see. I'm also gonna add a pic of Rebecca in her hula outfit taken last year. I need to get me a digital camera. Jim's cellphone camera takes horrible pics when it's not outdoors in sunlight. We had a time getting Daniel to be still, so I had to include Dan in the photo so he could hold Daniel. So here are Rebecca the scarecrow, Marissa the cheerleader, and Daniel as Batman.

And our hula dancer Miss Rebecca, lol.

Have a great night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Paul and Nancy

                                  

Today I want to write something a little different. It is about 2 people whom I love and care about very much. Those people are my youngest brother Paul, and my very dear friend Nancy. The two of them are truely awesome people, and have so much love to give. First I will tell you about Nancy. She is like a twin to me. We share the same likes and dislikes. She loves family, friends, music, Jland, Pogo, and children as I do. She and I met on line about 10 years in a gameroom in pogo called the saloon. We became great friends. We share pictures with each other, talk on the phone, write, email, chat on im and in a game room. She is the most sweetest, kind, loving person you would ever want to meet. I am very blessed to have her as my friend, my sissy as we call each other. Nancy has a journal here in Jland also. Stop by and visit her journal (desires) on my side bar. She talks about her family and of course my little brother, lol.

As for my brother Paul, as some of you know he is incarcerated in the virginia prison system. He is married (hate his wife, grrrrr) to a woman who is 15 years older than he is. She is a loser let me tell you. She never showed him any love, respect, or kindness. She was always grouchy, ignorant, would drink and argue with him. One night she threw his dinner on his lap right after she took it out of the oven. Hot cheeries jubilee was the dessert and Paul said it was painful. Paul came home one night after work and found his wife gone. It literally destroyed  him. He came to my house a few times and would cry. His heart was broken. On the day of their wedding anniversary when she had left, Paul was at home making a wonderful dinner of EggPlant Parm and Spaghetti, hoping she would walk in the door and come back into his life. He never got to share that dinner with her. She never came back. My niece and her boyfriend showed up instead. They got to drinking, and drinking, Paul feeling so depressed trying to drown out the sadness in his life with alcohol. Soon they had run out of their alcohol, and having no money between 3 of them and wanting more to drink, they came up with the idea of stealing. The three of them were arrested for attempted armed robbery. Being the man my brother is, he took the blame for almost all of it, and including telling the police his niece had no part in it, she was asleep in the truck and knew nothing of what they were doing. He couldn't let her ruin her life by having such a charge on her record. He loved his niece and wanted her to be able to live her life freely. Paul was given 6 years in prison. My heart dropped into my stomach when I heard the judge say guilty and 6 years. The boyfriend of my niece got 3 years for driving the truck. Paul has told me numerous times, he is an idiot and so stupid for doing what he did. And he is so sorry for all the heartache he has caused me. He knows I worry about him constantly. I have a very close bond with him. When our mother died, he was just a baby and I raised him. he called me Mommy til he was 7 years old. He knows I worry, and am upset for what he did 5 years ago. Last year Paul decided he was gonna forget about the wife who broke his heart and move on. he will be divorcing her as soon as he gets out of prison and moving on with his life. he asked me if I knew anyone who would be willing to write him, be a penpal to him. That he wanted to write to someone and tell them things he cannot tell me or didn't feel comfortable telling me. I asked my dear friend Nancy if she would be up to being a penpal to my brother, and she agree'd to write to him. They write on a daily basis, exchanged pictures, tell each other their inner most feelings, and they fell in love. I am so happy that 2 people I love so dearly found love with each other. I feel in my heart I did the right thing asking Nancy to write to someone she didn't even know. She is so happy and so in love, and my brother feels the same way. I know when Paul is released in November of 2007 he will do everything in his power to make a life for him and Nancy. They are both so very special and I want only the best for them. And I can't wait to have Nancy living close by me, where I can see her all the time, go shopping, have a BBQ, have them over for dinner, and teach my new sister in law to be how to cook, lol. My brother loves to eat, so she'll have her hands full keeping him fed. Paul has told me when he is released he will work on his list of things to do. Job, divorce, a place to live so he can bring his Nancy to her new home with him. And he would like to be a Dad someday if they are blessed. he is so good with kids and really wants to have one or two of his own. I told him and Nancy both, they can borrow Rebecca on weekends, lol. Everytime I get a letter from Paul he always says give the baby a hug and kiss for me. Wait until he see's how big she has gotten when he gets out. But anyways, I just wanted to let you know of 2 very special people in my life, that I love dearly. And whenevr you have the time, go to my sidebar and click on Nancy's journal, desires, and read about her life, leave a comment if you'd like or just say hi. She is a wonderful person, lady.

I will go now. Gonna fix Rebecca something to eat, then tackle my closet, maybe. Depends on how I feel. Woke up with horrible bone pain today. Could be a sign winter is coming, grrrrrrrrrrr. Or maybe old age, lol. I say that because the other day I found a grey hair in my hair, and believe me I was not liking it one bit. Happy Halloween everyone, enjoy your day.

                    

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

Scarey

Ghosts goblins witches and more,
are lurking outside don't open your door.
The rattle of chains flying high on a broom,
out in the darkness lit by the moon.
There's vampires wolfman frankenstein too,
be very careful their waiting for you.
Hold onto your loved ones hold on tight,
hold onto your loved ones on this scarey night.

Cindy Lee Sawn

Copyright ©2006 Cindy Lee Sawn

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE. I AM POSTING MY HALLOWEEN ENTRY TONIGHT INSTEAD OF TOMORROW. I HAVE A BUSY DAY PLANNED TOMORROW. I'LL CHECK MY EMAIL IN THE MORNING AND AFTER THAT I WILL BE TACKLING THE CLOSET IN MY LIVINGROOM. THIS IS A WALKIN CLOSET, BUT RIGHT NOW YOU CAN'T WALK INTO IT. IT IS FULL AND I DO MEAN FULL OF THINGS WE CANNOT USE RIGHT NOW DUE TO THE LACK OF SPACE IN MY APARTMENT. IT WILL MOST LIKELY BE AN ALL DAY PROJECT. REBECCA SAID SHE WILL HELP ME, LOL. YEA RIGHT, SHE'LL BE TEARING OPEN ALL THE BAGS AND BOXES TO SEE WHAT SHE CAN FIND TO GET INTO. THERE IS SO MUCH STUFF IN THERE, I COULD OPEN MY OWN LITTLE THRIFT STORE. I HAVE BEEN KEEPING AN EYE AND AN EAR OPEN FOR ANY NOISES OUTDOORS OR WRONGFUL DOINGS, AND SO FAR IT'S BEEN QUIET. I HOPE IT STAYS THAT WAY. JIM AND REBECCA ARE ASLEEP FOR THE NIGHT.  REBECCA WAS SUPPOSE TO SPEND THE NIGHT AT HER SISTER EMMA'S, BUT AT THE LAST MINUTE SHE CHANGED HER MIND. SHE TOLD HER BIG SISTER, I WANNA GO HOME, I MISS MY MOMMY. SO EMMA BROUGHT HER HOME. AND WHAT WERE HER WORDS AFTER HER SISTER LEFT? SHE SAID I WOULD LIKE A SNACK, CHEESE AND CRACKERS, FRUIT PUNCH AND CARTOONS ON PLEASE. HMMMM, I THINK SHE THINKS SHE IS BOSS, LOL. I GOT HER THE SNACK AND HER DADDY FOUND A HALLOWEEN CARTOON FOR HER. THEN IT WAS JAMMIES, BRUSH THE TEETH AND NIGHTY NIGHT REBECCA. NO ARGUMENTS EITHER, CAUSE SHE WAS WORN OUT. EMMA PICKED HER UP THIS MORNING, AND KEPT HER FOR THE ENTIRE DAY. AND DID I ENJOY MY QUIET TIME.........HELL YEA I DID. DIDN'T NAP THOUGH, I CLEANED. WHY IS IT THAT WHENEVER MY CHILD IS OVER HER SISTER'S INSTEAD OF ME RESTING, I CLEAN? JIM CAME HOME, HOUSE WAS QUIET, SPOTLESS, AND DINNER WAS COOKING. I MADE A MEATLOAF, MASHED POTATO'S, BROWN GRAVY, BUTTERED CORN AND A CUCUMBER AND TOMATO SALAD. THERE WAS OVER HALF A MEATLOAF LEFT, SO I SLICED A FEW SLICES AND MADE JIM 2 SANDWICHES OF MEATLOAF, LETTUCE AND MAYO FOR HIS LUNCH TOMORROW. HE SAID I'M SPOILING HIM BY PACKING HIS LUNCH EVERYDAY. I TOLD HIM I DO IT BECAUSE IT IS ALOT CHEAPER AND HEALTHIER IF I PACK HIM A LUNCH INSTEAD OF HIM GOING TO SOME FAST FOOD PLACE AND EATTING. HE SAID HE'S NOT COMPLAINING, HE JUST THINKS IT'S NICE THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE TO HUNT DOWN A PLACE TO EAT OR WORRY IF HE HASN'T THE MONEY TO BUY SOMETHING. SO NOW HE HAS NO WORRIES, JUST EAT AND ENJOY IT I TELL HIM, LOL.

EMMA GAVE HER SISTER A PAIR OF SNEAKERS TODAY THAT ARE ALMOST BRAND NEW THAT MARISSA HAS GROWN OUT OF. I AM GLAD THEY FIT REBECCA, SHE HAS OUTGROWN ALL HER SHOES EXCEPT FOR 2 PAIR HER SANDALS AND HER BLACK DRESS SHOES. NO WONDER I COULDN'T GET HER FOOT INTO A SIZE 11 SHOE, SHE IS A 12 NOW.  SHE'S SO LITTLE BUT HER FEET GROW FAST. GUESS SHE IS TAKING AFTER HER DADDY. I JUST WISH HER BODY WOULD GROW AND CATCH UP TO HER FEET, LOL.

I HOPE EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL TIME TOMORROW TRICK OR TREATING OR PASSING OUT CANDY TO ALL THE LITTLE PIRATES, WITCHES, PRINCESS'S AND GOBLIN'S. EMMA ASKED ME IF SHE CAN TAKE REBECCA TRICK OR TREATING, SHE SAID A PARTY WITH JUST MOMMY AND DADDY IS NO FUN. REBECCA BEGGED ME TO LET HER GO WITH HER SISTER, SO WHAT COULD I SAY, BUT YES. SO SHE IS HAPPY AND SO EXCITED. REBECCA IS GOING TO BE A PRINCESS BUTTERFLY, MARISSA WILL BE A CHEERLEADER AND MY LIL MAN DANIEL IS BATMAN. I'M GONNA HAVE EMMA AND DAN BRING THE KIDS UPSTAIRS AND TAKE A PICTURE OF THEM ALL DONE UP IN THEIR COSTUMES TOGETHER AND I WILL POST IT IN AN ENTRY. I GUESS THAT'S ABOUT ALL FOR TONIGHT. HAVE A SAFE AND HAPPY HALLOWEEN. OH, I POSTED MY OTHER HALLOWEEN POEM I WROTE ABOVE.

A Halloween Entry

                                   

                                     

Halloween Scare

Darkness falls this halloween eve
spirits rise from a crypt beneath
ghost goblins witches and more
there out there waiting
just outside your door
do you hear their howl
can you hear them moan
their out there waiting
don't go out there alone
behind a tree or under a car
they know your out there
and know where you are
they'll wait and watch
and quietly creep
you won't know their coming
they make not a peep
stay in your house say not a word
daylight will come and the dead go home.

Cindy Sawn

Copyright ©2006 Cindy Lee Sawn

I wrote this poem early this year to use for Halloween this year. I hope you all enjoy it. I have another I will use in an entry on Halloween Day.

My weekend so far

Good morning!!! I have had a very nice weekend so far. Yesterday my grandson Daniel was here for the day. What a joy it is having him spend the day with me. He is so lovable, I got lots of hugs and kisses from him. And yes he shared "my" diet pepsi with me, lol. Walked around carrying my cellphone, opening it and placing it by his ear, backwards of course saying, HiYo. That is how he pronounces hello, lol. It is so cute. Emma dropped him off around 10:45 yesterday morning, and I kept him til 8:pm. We were having too much fun playing. But around 8pm, he was starting to show signs of being tired so I called Emma and he sent Dan to pick him up. He went right over to his daddy, gave him a kiss and looked at me and waved bye bye. Emma said when she got home, he said bot bot, grabbed his fuzzy soft fleece blanket and wanted to go to bed. I guess he was tired, lol. He is such a good baby. He's now 18mos old, and growing so fast now. But he still likes it when mommom holds him and rocks him in the rocking chair. I need to get some boy toys here for him. Yesterday all he played with were girls toys and Rebecca's doll stroller. lol. Poppop was not liking that too much. lol. Today it is quiet. Rebecca is watching HBO Family cartoons and Jim is at the marina helping Joe get his boat out of the water. Time to winterize it, cover it and put in dry dock for the winter. I haven't been out on the boat, since the summer I found out I had cancer. That's been 2 years now. I still haven't been up to the cabin in the pocono's either. Just don't want to be the outdoor's person anymore. It's no fun when you have to be all covered and have sunblock, hat, sunglasses on just to go outside. It worries me that my daughter Emma keeps going to the tanning salon for her tan, knowing cancer runs in the family and I have had it. She has already had a cancer scare when they removed 128 pallops from her cervix a few years ago. I am so thankful they weren't cancer. Her grandmother (jims mom) told her the tanning salon is not a good thing to do. She should know, she was an RN for 48 years and I trust her judgement. Well, I am still in my pajamas and it is 11am, lol. Yep, I'm taking a lazy day. I will get dressed soon and start my house chores. I'm gonna put on a pot of spaghetti sauce soon, let it cook all day. Gonna add some green peppers, onions and sweet and hot italian sausage to it, yummy.  Also gonna make some Brushetta to go along with it. I love making it home made, it is delicious. If my son in law knows I am making it, you bet your sweet patooty he'll be over, lol. Here's the recipe if you'd like to try it.

4 diced tomatoe's     1 small onion diced small

5 tablespoons olive oil         3 tablespoons white vinegar

1/4 tsp black pepper          1/4 tsp dried basil

parmesan cheese        8 slices toasted garlic bread (I buy garlic bread toast from the store and use it)

add tomato, olive oil, vingar, onion, and pepper and basil into bowl and mix. bake garlic bread toast as according to instructions on box. spoon enough tomato mixture on each piece of toast to cover it. sprinkle with parmesan cheese and serve immediately. Mmmmmmm this is so good.

Well, not much more to write about at the moment so I will go now. Hope your all enjoying your morning. I'm gonna get dressed and put on my sauce now. Take care all and have a wonderful day.

Reminder: Do those breast exams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                           

Also want to thank Mandy for this so very cute breast cancer awareness name tag.So thank you Mandy, I love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello Everyone

  Just thought I would drop in and write a bit today. I have my granddaughter here for the day. So she and Rebecca are having a great time playing. I just got back from a walk with them. We had a nice time. I stopped at the deli up the street and bought them each an icecream sandwich, which they thought was just the greatest thing. Their sitting here on the rug watching cartoons and having their icecream. It's a good thing we went for our walk already, because the sky isn't looking too pretty right now. Weather alert says high winds and heavy rains later today and into tomorrow. But as long as it isn't snow, I don't mind the rain. In a little bit I will fix the girl's some lunch. They are asking for a grilled cheese sandwich, and a bowl of tomato soup. They like to dip their grilled cheese in the soup, lol. I do the same thing. Tonight for dinner I am making Jim a special surprise. I haven't made these in awhile so he will definately be surprised. I am making stuffed porkchops. Stuffed with a cornbread stuffing. Making baked potato's and corn on cob and a fresh green salad also. I think he'll be happy when I hand him his dinner. Yes, I make his plate for him, I always have. And no, I don't cut up his meat for him, lol. it just makes me feel good to make him a dinner plate and see his face when he see's what I have made for him. I packed him lunch today. He was shocked when I handed him his lunch case. He smiled and said, wow thanks hun. He dropped off his pay to me this morning. I set some aside for Joe towards the rent, and Dan came over and picked up my deposit and went to the bank for me. That money will be to pay a bill today. The next 2 paychecks I will get caught up on bills and everything should be back to normal after that, I hope. I think it will be though.

Well, I guess there isn't much more to write about at the moment. I'm gonna go fix the girls some lunch, and put them down for a rest. Then I think I will write a couple of letters I have been meaning to write. So take care and hope your all having a wonderful day.

Cindy

Brrrrrrrrrrr

                                        

Dear Mother Nature,

        Can you do me a big favor and let summer come back? It's freezing here in Philadelphia. Rebecca and I walked down to the store and were like popsicles when we got back home.

 

I wonder if she heard me, lol. Man, it is cold outside. It is 45 degree's, cloudy and windy, which is making it feel like it's 35 outside. I am not a winter person. Next thing you know it'll be snowing, and I am not looking forward to that.

                                    

Rebecca and I got home and had some chicken noodle soup and a cup of raspberry tea, bones are warm now. I'm gonna get busy soon and do some cleaning. Seems like that's all I ever do is clean. I just wanna know when I get a day off? Jim said my day off will come when Rebecca is grown and moved out of the house, lol. That's what he thinks.

                                  

As soon as I find the proper broom, I'm on vacation for a weekend of quality me time, lol. I haven't decided where I'll go yet, but I am going. But my vacation alone will probably be a quick trip to a grocery store, lol. I don't get time away, grrrrrrrrrrrrr. Only in my dreams do I dream of a far away place, where it's quiet and I can shut out the outside world.

                                         

Well, now that my child has finished her soup and tea, and trashed my livingroom, it is time for her to take a nap so I can clean up her mess. Hope your all staying warm today. Take care and have a great day.

                        

My Day So Far

                        

First off I would like to give out a great big thank you to D of D's Designs for this lovely tag. I absolutely love the colors.

Today has been nice so far. I went to the soc sec office as scheduled. Walked in told the guy at the desk I had an appointment, typed in my last four digits of my social security number, and before I even sat in a chair next to my daughter's Emma and Rebecca, a lady called my name. Wow, was that quick or what? Asked me a few question's, gave her my doctor's names, signed about 10 paper's. She said I would know something in about 3 month's, because that's how long it usually takes. She did say, that hearing what I have been going through, and all the problem's I have physically with my health, there's a very good chance it will go through with no problem's. So we'll see what happens.

         

After we got back from the social security office, I made a pot of coffee and Emma stayed and visited with us for a while. It's been quite a while since it has been just me and my 2 girls together. It was nice having them both her and watching them talk and tell jokes, and give each other hugs. It really warmed my heart. I missed the years of watching them grow up together closer to age, because I had Emma in 1980 when I was 18 1/2 yrs old and in 2001 I had Rebecca when I was 40 years old. So, Emma was already married with her own child. She had my granddaughter Marissa 2 weeks and 6 days after I had Rebecca. It was nice being pregnant together, and sharing our swollen ankles, and weird cravings together. Of course Jim and Emma's husband Jeff (now her x husband) didn't have so much fun with 2 of us being pregnant, lol.

          

Rebecca is in taking a nap, so it is very quiet right now. I was able to watch Judging Amy and be able to hear it, lol. I have Law and Order on now. They are 2 of my favorite show's. My butt should be cleaning the kitchen, but I just can't get motivated to do it. I'd rather just go and take a nap. Hmmm, a nap? It does sound good, lol. I just may do that too. Jim called me about 11:30 this morning to see how my morning went so far. I let him know, it went ok, and all I can do is sit and wait now. He said he has a busy day today at work. Just in case his other job somehow finds this journal, I will post what has been up with Jim in my private journal. Well, that's about it so far today. Hope your all doing well and enjoying your day so far. Still considering that nap, lol.

                      

                

Just wanted to make an entry here in this journal, before I go off to bed. Watching the news right now. Only bad news I've heard so far, is the my Eagles lost due to Tampa Bay player making a 62 yard field goal, grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. before that field goal the eagles were winning. Oh well, better luck next time.

                     

Well, having 2 journals is pretty cool. Alot more comments to read, lol. But it keeps me busy. I started the private journal for a few reason's. One being because I think that jerk who tried to come between Emma and Dan reads this here journal, to find out what's going on with them. And another reason is, sometimes it is just so much easier telling things about your life to people outside of your family. I love my family dearly and I do know they love me, at least I hope they do. But sometimes I just need a "me" place. I don't get alot of "me" time here at home. Either Rebecca is fussing for something, or one of my grandkids is here, or Jim's at home, and I can't write in my journal's cause their always hovering over me, and I feel like I am suffocating. Having the Private Journal gives me a feeling of peace. Of privacy, something I don't have here at home. Jeez, I can't even go take a pee alone, without Rebecca walking in the bathroom behind me. lol. If I'm in the shower, they come in to go potty, or Jim is getting something from the medicine cabinet. It's like you want to scream, "Get out, leave me alone!" But then you risk having them get upset. So, my private journal is my quiet place, my alone place, a place where I can unwind and just be myself. It's not like I have cut my family off from reading what is going on. I still have this journal here that they can read. I could of just made this one private, but I didn't because I wanted them to have a place where they can go find out about me. I don't feel I am being mean or ignorant by having 2 journals and only allowing them to read one of them. I feel my private journal is like my diary. And I wouldn't expect them to let me read their diary if they didn't want me too. Anyways, I guess that's about it for now. Hope everyone had a lovely weekend, and has an even better week.

              

A Painful Saturday

                                        

Hello everyone. Hope you all had a great day. My day was ok. I used the most part of it to catch up on some journal alerts, down load some name tags and up load them into photo bucket. Mandy sent me a link that had 187 name tags from fotki.com. I think I snagged 185 of them, lol. Can never have too many name tags, lol. My neighbor next door is moving in December. So she put a bunch of things outside today for free. One of the items was a tall white and gold old fashioned solid wood dresser. Not a scratch on it. I had Jim bring it inside our door because it is perfect for my grand daughter. Emma loved it when I showed it to her and she took it home. Jim loaded it in the car for her. She said it was perfect, because lil Daniel is getting taller now and pulls everything off the top of Marissa's dresser and it falls on him. So, now he won't be able to reach it. He is such a little stinker, gets into everything. His favorite thing to do now is climb up on the diningroom chairs and get up on top of the table. But then he's afraid to get down, and starts crying. He has learned a new word. He'll come up to you, take his little hand and touch you and say, tickle tickle. I loved hearing that, it was so cute.

Well, Rebecca and Jim are asleep for the night. She was all worn out by a hard day of playing with her playdough. Jim said she was up at 7:30 and right away grabbed the playdough. At 8pm when I got her ready for bed, she was still playing with it. Jim went to bed around 10:15. He had some scarey movie on that he was watching and went to bed leaving it on. Well, I grabbed that remote and changed the channel. I love scarey movies, but I don't like watching them alone. Yes, I am a big chicken when it comes to that.

This morning when I woke up and tried to get out of bed, I almost screamed. My right hip and thigh was throbbing. I don't know what is wrong, I didn't fall or anything. But it hurts to the point I have been using my cane all day to walk around. Jim said there's no bruising or swelling, but it does feel hot to the touch. I tried an ice pack but it didn't help. Took a long hot shower, that didn't help. It's very annoying, I can tell you that much. Maybe it's a bad charliehorse or something. I hope it's gone tomorrow, because I want to scrub my bathroom down. Jim's gonna take my daughter to work, and use her car to go to the laundrymat. I'm glad he's going, I hate going.

I am sitting here having myself a cup of hot mint tea. And I am in heaven. I haven't had mint tea in a long time. It is absolutely delicious. Thank you Princess rapunzel, lol. I am enjoying it very much. I love tea. I use to enjoy my coffee alot more, but ever since I went through the chemo, it doesn't taste the same anymore. I do have some in the mornings sometimes, but I would rather have tea now.

Well, I guess that's it for now. Hope your all enjoying your weekend. Congrats to everyone who was nominated in the VIVI's. I have all the journals written down that I'll be voting for on November 2. And no, I am not telling who I am voting for, lol. Have a nice evening all.

                              

 

                                    

It's so quiet here in my livingroom right now. All I can hear is the pump running in the turtle tank and the television which I have turned down the volume, just so I can hear the news. Already it's depressing. A 15yr old girl was killed crossing the Roosevelt Blvd, by a hit and run driver. Don't these people know that when the light is red that it is telling you to stop? That's why driving gets on my nerves. I follow all the laws, but there's always some idiot who thinks he or she owns the road.

My daughter Emma came over tonight to visit with her little sister. They were playing with the playdough. Rebecca loves spending time with her big sister. They were making snakes out of the playdough, lol. After Emma left Rebecca got her bath, and got into her pajamma's then watched the halloween special's they had on cartoon network tonight. At 9:30 she said, I'm ready for bed now mommy. So, we brushed her teeth and off to dreamland she went. She was so tired, she didn't even ask for a story tonight. Jim had gone too bed about an hour before Rebecca did. He was so tired. But he says it's a good tired, because he is working again.

What a yucky day today was. It rained all morning, then it looked as though it was gonna clear up for a while, then about 1pm it started getting really dark and I heard a couple rumbles of thunder, then the wind started blowing, I could of sworn the tree limbs on the side of Joe's house would snap off, but they didn't. Then the clouds opened up and man did it pour. It lasted about 15 minutes, and finally stopped. The wind died down around 10pm, and I had to close the windows, it is freezing outside now. Man, that cold front came in quick. I put an extra blanket on Rebecca tonight. But I know she'll kick it off a dozen times while she is sleeping. I'll cover her up before I go to bed, then later Jim will get up and he'll cover her up. He get's up late at night so he can enjoy some of his quiet time on the computer also. And most likely he'll cover her up again before he comes backto bed.

I guess that's about it for tonight. Hope everyone had a great day tonight, has a peaceful night, and sleeps well. Goodnight.

                               

More indian graphics to share

 

 

 

Did I Miss Anyone?

                     

I just finished adding you all to my private journal. Now if I missed anyone, please email me with your link and I will add you. I gave the copy and paste buttons a real workout this morning. Oh my, and I just looked at the clock and it's after 1:pm. Where did my morning go? Wow, getting a new journal that is private all set up is alot of hard work, whew, lol.

Ok, so I received an email this morning from a really cool guy. I watched a video he has of being nominated for the vivi's and what a funny video it was. I laughed so much and so did Rebecca. He is fairly new to Jland and asked to spread the word about his journal. So, I am gonna do so. So, go pay him a visit, you'll love it.

http://journals.aol.co.uk/davethesod/mish-mash/

Ok, so my new journal is up and I hope done right, so that you can enter it. If you go to it and can't get in, please let me know. Still, waiting for the darn mailman. Hope he comes soon. Take care all and have a great day.

                              

Good morning all. I just wanted to say, I made the private journal as a "me" place. I just wanted a place where I could say alot more, and be at ease with it. I am still keeping my other journal, though, cause my outside family and friends out of Jland read what's going on with me in that journal. Besides if I deleted that one, I'd be hearing it from them, lol. I just wanted to have a private journal. Just a place where I could say alot more and not have to worry about anyone's feelings or hurting anyone. Everyone I have on my side bar and those of you who aren't on my side bar, email me with your link and I will add you to the private journal also. Those of you on my side bar now I will add today. Now if I can figure out this private journal thing and get all the settings done, I can send you all the link. AOL seems to be giving me a problem this morning, and I keep getting an error message, grrrrrrrrrr dang AOL. Ok, so don't worry, I'm not going totally private, I just want a private place for me, that's all. So, instead of you all having 1 journal of mine to comment in, now you got 2, heehee. OK, gonna go want to figure out what I'm doing with this settings thingy now. Talk with you soon.

MUAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cindy

Announcing my private journal.

I have started a private journal, other than this one. I will be sending out an email to all my Jland friends announcing it, and will give you the link. I will add your journals I have links to right now to my side bar on my new private journal.

Love,

Cindy

A Special Birthday Wish for an Angel

                                     

October 20th would of been Sandy's 22nd birthday. God felt the need to take her to heaven to be with him. But I feel the need to wish this precious Angel, my niece Sandy a very happy birthday.

So, Sandy even though you are not here on this earth to give you a party, I know your up in heaven having a wonderful celebration. And down here on earth I am celebrating right along with you honey.

So, Have A Very Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                              

                                              SANDY

We think of you always, as each day goes by

We think of you leaving, and ask why

Your gone from us now, no more will we see

The beautiful girl, you grown up to be

Our hearts are laiden, and heavy with grief

Now your with angels, we strongly believe

So look down on us, and know that we're here

For in our hearts, you'll always be near

So rest our angel, and worry no more

When our time is over, we'll walk in heaven's door.

                                  

                             

Hello everyone. Sorry I didn't come back sooner. I had alot to do earlier tonight. Had to figure out what to fix for supper, cause that dam check didn't come today. It says it was being processed then it says it was processed. If it doesn't come by tomorrow or saturday we will have to call them, because it could of been given to someone else's address. I guess if that's the case they'd have to stop payment on it and issue another, hopefully. But I did manage to fix something acctually pretty good for dinner. Remember I said I had some corn in freezer, well I had flour, baking powder and a little milk left, so I made a pancake batter, added the corn (cooked)  and made some corn fritters, with syrup on them. Rebecca thought it was just yummy having pancakes for supper, lol. Jim ate 5 of them and they were pretty big too. He said hun, I don't know how you do it, but you always figure out something when there's nothing to fix. Years of practice when I was a kid, I guess. We were left alone alot with nothing, and I always found something. And if that check doesn't come tomorow it's ok. Jim informed me that his boss is gonna pay him for the 2 days this week tomorrow after work, so we will have money for food. He likes his new job. The people are friendly, helpful, and not at all ignorant. He also said his other job did him a favor by terminating him, cause he loves this new job. So, don't worry anymore, we will be ok.

While I was giving Rebecca a bath tonight, she was telling me some really cute jokes. I just have to share them with you.

What does a bee say to a flower?      Hello, honey.

What type of fruit does a ghost eat?   Boo berries.

Knock, knock, who's there? boo, boo who, awww it's ok, don't cry.

Now tell me that isn't cute coming from a 5yr old. Sometimes this kid is just too smart. Uncle Joe came up before she went to bed, and she curled up to him and said she loved him. Then she told him to go downstairs and take a shower cause he was stinky, lol. He had just gotten off from work, lol. He told me in the morning to take Rebecca downstairs and fix her some breakfast. I have a key and his alarm code, so I think I will do that. He has egg beaters and turkey bacon, she'll eat it. Joe tries to eat healthy also, due to his cholesterol and trigliserides. (I know I spelled that wrong) lol. What are trigliserides anyway?

Oh well, I'm going to go now. Thank you so much everyone for your help, your advice and your loving comments, prayers and thoughts. But I think we'll be ok now.

                               

                                       Cindy

Where's that darn mailman?

                                           

It is going on 3:pm and no mailman yet. I swear they come whenever they feel like it just to make me mad. And for the past few month's we have had at least 15 different mailmen.

Well, I did something that will do some good this morning. Today was pick up day for the needy, for clothes, shoes, linens, curtains, so I went through things that no longer fit Rebecca anymore, placed them in a bag and set them on porch with the tag they left on my door. I watched as the truck pulled over and came up on the porch and got the bag I left. So, somewhere in this city a little girl or girls will be able to wear some nice things. It gave me a real good feeling to do that.

I had my grandson Daniel for a few hours yesterday. It was so nice having him here. Most of the time here he was in my arms, and I didn't mind it at all. I got lots of hugs and kisses and smiles. He ate all his lunch for me, which was great. Emma sent over one of those entree's in a container of veggie beef stew. He fussed some, but eventually gave up and let me feed it to him and he finished it all. He was a little cranky, because the day before he had gotten 3 shots. He pointed to the bandaids on his leg saying this mommom this. He wouldn't let his mommy remove the bandaids, but he let his mommom do it for him.

Well, amazingly Rebecca is being good today. She did make a confetti mess of torn up paper, but she cleaned it up. Then this morning she wanted to get dressed so she went to her dresser and pulled the drawer and started screaming. I thought my god she fell and got hurt. I run into bedroom and there she is holding the drawer, she pulled it out too far and it was falling, with her trying to hold onto it. She was hystericaly screaming and crying, saying I'm sorry mommy, I broke it. I quick grabbed it put it back in and told her see it's all fixed, but she still needed mommy to hug her and tell her it was ok she didn't break anything.

Well, I'm going to go for now. I will be back later. Have a great day all.

                 

Finally some good news

                            

I finally have some good news to write down. Jim got a phone call this morning, from Ed's Glass. They wanted him to come in for a chat. He came home smiling. He got the job and start's tomorrow. I am so darn happy right now. And so is he. The boss said 40 hours a week plus all the overtime he wants to work, thank you god. I can get caught up on bills, and get some food into this house. Mailman just came, no unemployment check yet, grrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I called a couple places this morning to try to get some food, one placed said, we're sorry but the number you have called has been disconnected, no further information is available. Second place, I got an answering machine, saying to leave name and number and brief reason for calling. A third place there was no answer. I am just gonna try to borrow a few dollars from someone to get something for dinner today, if not I'll make do with what we have. I have a couple carrots, 2 celery sticks, onion half bag each of peas and corn, so I was thinking I can search the house find enough change for a can of beef broth or even chicken broth and fix some veggie soup. Hey it's full of vitamins and it's hot right? I have a little flour and 2 eggs left, so maybe some dumplings in it or fried bisquits I can make. We'll make do. Hopefully that check comes tomorrow. I pray it does.

I have my grandson Daniel here today. I've gotten so many hugs and kisses from him. That made me feel good. I love my lil man. Well, I'd like to send out a great big THANK YOU to a very special lady Angie/canyonSun. Thank you Angie, you are such a wonderful person. Rebecca wants to meet you she said, after she talked with you this morning. So, as soon as I get moved and we can plan it, let's plan for it.

                                  

I guess I will go now. My lil man is awake and beings it is so nice outside today and warm, I am gonna take Rebecca and Daniel outside for a walk. We could all use some fresh air. Have a great day all. I feel so much better today, knowing Jim has another job. Thank you everyone for your prayers and a special thank you for all who have helped me. I love you all.