Thank you Sugar for this lovely tag.
Good Morning everyone. I hope all of you are doing well. I'm sitting here looking at this entry and for the life of me I can't figure out what to write. Can you believe that? Me speechless, lol? Ok let me see if I can write something. Well, Jim was downstairs with Joe the other day. I was at Emma's. Out of the blue Jim says Joe started again, saying I was excess baggage, I was fat and lazy and holding Jim back. I guess my talk with Jim worked, because he blew up at Joe. Alot of mean things were said and Joe told Jim to get out of his house and to move. Which we are already planning on doing come Aug 1st. I still caan't figure out why Joe hates me so much. I have never said or done anything wrong to him. I have always been there for him as a friend and care giver to his Mom. I've run errands for him like grocery store, bank, post office. I've cooked for his dinner parties, I've had him over for dinner numerous times, and he even went to a few of my doctor appointments and chemo treatments with me. I thought he was my friend, a member of my family. But I guess he felt otherwise. It all has me very depressed. Jim says things will be better once we are moved. I sure hope so.
My son in law Dan may have to have more back surgery. His doctor seems to think one of the screws in Dan's back shifted and is causing him so much more pain. Dan will be having a Cat Scan soon to find out. I will let you know the results. Please pray no more surgery is needed.
On a happier note............Jim is back in the work force. A place he applied at the same week he was laid off called him in. He is so happy. This is a huge company, with excellent benefits and a great dental plan. I will finally be able to get the rest of these teeth pulled and dentures. I can go back to my cancer doctor and make sure I am still in remission. And I can go to my family doctor to see if I can get that bypass surgery to lose this weight. I want to lose at least 175 pounds.
My mood the past couple months has been really bad. Emma told me Jim told her that he don't know what to do for me because I don't open up and talk to him. I have never been one to talk about myself to my family. I feel so much more comfortable just writing here to all of you. So last night I had a thought. I can't talk openly in person but I can write. So I sat down, got up the courage and wrote Jim a 5 page letter, explaining all that is going on, and what I am feeling. I hope now I can get up the courage to give him this letter.
Well, that's about all there is to write about. There's probably more, but I can't think right now. Going up to 90 today, BLAHHHHHHH. And rain tomorrow, double BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Love you all.................................CINDY