Sunday, June 29, 2008

This and That

Today my hubby Jim celebrates his 53rd birthday. Nothing special was planned, because someone beat me to the punch without asking what my plans were for today. Joe bought a ticket for Jim along with 3 other tickets for himself and 2 of his nephews for a chartered fishing trip. They left 3:30am this morning and will be gone until later this evening. Jim will be too tired to want to do anything when he gets home. Oh well,  I hope he at least catches a fish.

Yesterday Joe comes upstairs to my apartment. He's talking away with Rebecca and Jim. Answering all their questions, and telling them about his day. I ask him one question, Is your Mom ok? He put up his hand to me and very ignorantly says, I don't feel like talking about it. That really upset me. He can talk away with Jim and Rebecca, but me.......he just blows me off, like he has nothing to say to me. He didn't even say hi to me when he came upstairs. He said hi to Jim and Rebecca though. I had to go in the bathroom for a few minutes and I cried.  For the life of me I cannot figure out what I could of said or did wrong for him to be treating me this way. All I've ever done was help with his Mom, help cook and set up for parties for him, take his Mom out shopping and to a diner when he wasn't up to it. I don't know, this all has me really depressed. I cannot take the bullcrap anymore. August 1st we are moving. We're moving in with Emma and Dan until we find another place, or until we all buy our houses. We will be cramped for a while, but Emma and Dan have told me...anything they can do to help me they will do.

Last night I had the most crazy dream. I dreamed I was living in the early 1900's. I was wearing an olive green dress with a real pretty flowered hat to match. I was standing at the top of a staircase looking down at all my surroundings, then it dawned on me where I was. I was aboard the  TITANIC.

  Why on earth am I dreaming about being on the Titanic? I know I have always been curious about the ship and love learning all the history that evolves around it, but dreaming I was on the ship is another thing. But you know what? I enjoyed dreaming about it. It was like I was there, enjoying the sights, walking the decks, enjoying all the people dressed in such beautiful clothing. The weird thing was, no one saw me. It was like I was invisable. I could go anywhere on the ship and no one could see me. Deeper into my dream, it happens. The ship starts rocking. People who work on the R.M.S TITANIC start running around, giving orders. I hear someone tell another the ship is taking on water, alot of water, the unsinkable TITANIC is sinking.

I'm again standing at the top of that beautiful staircase. I am watching people running back and forth, most wearing white life jackets. And then it happens, the floor at the bottom of the staircase is becoming covered with water. The ship really was sinking. As the water was rising higher and higher, screams were becoming louder and louder. People yelling, HELP ME!!!!! At last the water had reached my feet. Cold icey water then sent chills up my spine. And that is when I finally realized something very important.

This girl needed to go potty, LOL. And off to the bathroom I went.....almost running, lol. Word of advice......never drink 24 ounces of fluids before bedtime, lol. Man did I have to go too. I'm glad I woke up, Jim wouldn't of liked the other outcome, lol.

So whats on my agenda? I'm taking a basket of laundry to Emma's and hanging out there for a while. The kids can go out in the pool, and I can play with Adrianna and chat with Emma and Dan. I always feel so welcomed and loved in their home. I think it's why I spend so much time over there.

So you all enjoy your sunday, and please if it's hot and humid and your out and about, please drink lots of water.

Love you all............ 


Saturday, June 28, 2008

To My Jland Family

This is so beautiful. Please click on the link below and watch this video. I dedicate this to all of you here in Jland whom I know and love dearly.


Love ya.....................CINDY

Part 2 of Isn't this the truth

Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight and height. Let the doctors worry about them. That is why you pay 'them.'

Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.

Keep learning. Learn more about th e com puter, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. 'An idle mind is the devil's workshop' And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.

Enjoy the simple things.

Laugh often, long and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.

The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person, who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.

Surround you rself with what you love , whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.

Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, even to the next county; to a foreign country but NOT to where the guilt is.

Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,
but by the moments that take our breath away.

Isn't this the truth?


George Carlin's Views on Aging

Do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? If you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions.

'How old are you?' 'I'm four and a half!' You're never thirty-six and a half. You're four and a half, going on five! That's the key

You get into your teens, now they can't hold you back. You jump to the next number, or even a few ahead.

'How old are you?' 'I'm gonna be 16!' You could be 13, but hey, you're gonna be 16! And then the greatest day of your life . . You become 21. Even the words sound like a cere mony . YOU BECOME 21 YESSSS!!!

But then y ou turn 30. Oooohh, what happened there? Makes you sound like bad milk! He TURNED; we had to throw him out. There's no fun now, you're Just a sour-dumpling. What's wrong? What's changed?

You BECOME 21, you TURN 30, then you're PUSHING 40. Whoa! Put on the brakes, it's all slipping away. Before you know it, you REACH 50 and your dreams are gone.

But wait!!!
You MAKE it to 60. You didn't think you would!

So you BECOME 21, TURN 30, PUSH 40, REACH 50 and MAKE it to 60.

You've built up so much speed that you HIT 70! After that it's a day-by-day thing; you HIT Wednesday!

You get into your 80's and every day is a complete cycle; you HIT lunch; you TURN 4:30 ; you REACH bedtime. And it doesn't end there. Into the 90s, you start going backwards; 'I Was JUST 92.'

Then a strange thing happens. If you make it over 100, you become a little kid again. 'I'm 100 and a half!'
May you all make it to a healthy 100 and a half!!

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Birthday Wishes

Today is a very special day for someone here in Jland. Our dear friend Sugar celebrates her birthday today. Sugar, Rebecca and I wish you the happiest day ever. And Rebecca has made a little something for you.

Happy Birthday my dear friend.


WE LOVE YOU.....................

Last day of school

GoodBye Room 18


 My lil buddy, Hector. He is such a sweet heart. I miss him.

Ronald and me. He is so lovable. I got a hug everyday when I walked into the classroom.

Taiyanna and me. She is such a dollbaby. Always so cheerful and smiling.

Alex and me. He is a total sweetheart.

James along with his big sister and their mom. These 2 kids are so well behaved. Their mom is very much into their education. She attends every PTA meeting and conference. I like that when a parent is so involved. It shows they love and care about the children. These 2 are blessed to have a mom such as her.

This lil doll is Jennifer. She is such a good girl. When she finishes her work, she'll go around the class and help those having trouble. She told me she wants to be a teacher when she grows up. I believe she will too.

This cutie pie is Cheyenne. She is so quiet and speaks so softly. She can also speak spanish, because her mom is spanish and teaches her the language.

There you go. Those are the kids that showed up June 19th, which was the last day of school. I miss all the kids, and seeing Phyllis the teacher everyday. But Phyllis and her boyfriend Jim and my Jim and I have remained friends. They are coming to Emma's for the 4th of July.

A few of you have asked about Marissa. She is doing ok. Emma follows doctors orders to the T. No running, jumping and watch her calorie intake. If she complains of headaches, dizziness or chest pains take her to C.H.O.P. She can walk, ride a bike, swim. Doctors want to give her some more time before they do a batter more of tests and possible surgery. Their hoping no surgery will be needed.

Mommom I is in real need of prayers. She is not doing well at all. She is in a nursing home. She fell getting out of her bed there and a nurse found her laying on the floor passed out in a pool of blood. She cracked her head open. She doesn't eat but maybe a bite or 2. She is down to 66 pounds. Her liver and kidneys are about done. I am sad to say she doesn't have much longer. If you would, can you please say a prayer for her?

I guess that's about it for now. Dinner will be here any minute. I hope everyone is having a great week.

Love to all........................... 



My baby granddaughter spent the night with us the other night. She is teething, therefore she kept her Mommom up over half the night. She is growing so fast. She has 2 teeth now and wants to chew on everything. Her favorite now is cheese curls. She loves them.

See her bottom 2 teeth?

My Birthday at Emma's

It's not a Carvel, but it was ok. I don't care for the iciing, but the marble cake was good.

Graduating from Kindergarten

Turn up your volume and listen to these lil ones sing there school song, called Blue and Gold.

Singing....Start spreading the news.

A dozen long stem roses and a balloon from her big sister Emma. I never got roses, ever. :(

Entry 4

 He is sleeping. Rebecca added the hat, sunglasses, perfu,e, permanent marker on arm and painted his toe nails with it too. Daddy's little girl..............

Check out the size of the beach ball. It is huge.

Entry 3

These are of me. You can tell how tired I have been lately. With homeschooling Marissa, and working at the school, running errands, home life it really took it's toll on this Grandma. I must admit........I'm not 29 anymore.....sniff sniff :(

Entry 2

Twinkle twinkle little star will never be the same again, LOL.


What I am going to do is just put pictures in upcoming entries with maybe a little description. And at the end of the last entry I will write a long entry. I have alot to tell you all. I hope you enjoy the pics.


Wednesday, June 25, 2008






Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Thank you sissy/Nancy B.

The Two Wolves

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside people. He said, 'My son, the battle is between two 'wolves' inside us all..

One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness , benevolence,empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.'

The grand son thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: 'Which wolf wins?'

The old Cherokee simply replied, 'The one you feed.'

Monday, June 23, 2008

Please watch and listen


This is another from PopPop Bill. Please turn up your volume, watch and listen. And when your finished, say a prayer for all our troops both men and women.  Thank you.

Another Good One From PopPop Bill

Shown below, is an actual letter that was sent to a bank by an 86 year old
woman. The bank manager thought it amusing enough to have it published in the
New York Times.

Dear Sir:

I am writing to thank you fo r bouncing my check with which I endeavored
to pay my plumber last month.

By my calculations, three nanoseconds must have elapsed between his
presenting the check and the arrival in my account of the funds needed
to honor it.

I refer, of course, to the automatic monthly deposit of my entire
pension, an arrangement which, I admit, has been in place for only eight
years. You are to be commended for seizing that brief window of
opportunity, and also for debiting my account $30 by way of penalty for
the inconvenience caused to your bank. My thankfulness springs from the
manner in which this incident has caused me to rethink my errant
financial ways.

I noticed that whereas I personally answer your telephone calls and
letters, --- when I try to contact you, I am confronted by the impersonal,
overcharging, pre-recorded, faceless entity which your bank has become.

From now on, I, like you, choose only to de al with a flesh-and-blood person.

My mortgage and loan repayments will therefore and hereafter no longer be

automatic, but will arrive at your bank, by check, addressed personally and

confidentially to an employee at your bank whom you must nominate.

Be aware that it is an offense under the Postal Act for any other person to

open such an envelope. Please find attached an Application Contact which

I require your chosen employee to complete. I am sorry it runs to eight pages,

but in order that I know as much about him or her as your bank knows about

me, there is no alternative. Please note that all copies of his or her medical

history must be countersigned by a Notary Public, and the mandatory details

of his/her financial situation (income, debts, assets and liabilities) must be

accompanied by documented proof. In due course, at MY convenience, I

will issue your employee with a PIN num ber which he/she must quote in

dealings with me. I regret that it cannot be shorter than 28 digits but, again,

I have modeled it on the number of button presses required of me to access

my account balance on your phone bank service. As they say, imitation is the

sincerest form of flattery.

Let me level the playing field even further.
When you call me, press buttons as follows:


#1. To make an appointment to see me.

#2. To query a missing payment.

#3. To transfer the call to my living room in case I am there.

#4. To transfer the call to my bedroom in case I am sleeping

#5. To transfer the call to my toilet in case I am attending to nature.

#6. To transfer the call to my mobile phone if I am not at home

#7. To leave a message on my computer, a password to access my computer
is required. Password will be communi cated to you at a later date to
that Authorized Contact mentioned earlier.

#8. To return to the main menu and to listen to options 1 through 7.

#9. To make a general complaint or inquiry. The contact will then be put
on hold, pending the attention of my automated answering service.

#10. This is a second reminder to press* for English. While this may, on
occasion, involve a lengthy wait, uplifting music will play for the

of the call.

Regrettably, but again following your example, I must also levy an
establishment fee to cover the setting up of this new arrangement. May I
wish you a happy, if ever so slightly less prosperous New Year?

Your Humble Client

(Remember: This was written by an 86 year old woman) 'YA JUST GOTTA

And remember: Don't make old ladies mad. They don't like being old in
the first place, so it doesn't take much to set them off.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Too Much Bull

Sorry no pretty pics or tags tonight. Today has been an all around bad news day. I take Rebecca to school and the teacher tells me friday is her last day as a teacher there. They transferred 3 teachers to a worse school then this one and she was one of them. All 3 teachers being white. I  have been at this school since October and let me tell you racism and kissing ass is a big time thing there. It's sickening. I actually heard one of the school administraters who is black tell a lady from the office who is also black, "Welcome to our little piece of Blackadelphia". Sickening isn't it? These 3 teachers are good teachers. They care about their students. Rebecca's teacher was in tears this morning telling me what they have done with her position there. I told her she is a good teacher with a big heart. Over the summer get her certification for the New Jersey school system and get her resume out there. Get the hell out of Philadelphia school system, because she is too good for this place. I am so sick of this fricken city and there school system. I have made up my mind. When we buy the house, it'll be in New Jersey. Ok, now the second bout of bad news. Emma calls me tonight. She says our dear friend Joe, who lives downstairs from us and we have been friends with for over 20 years caalls her today. Out of the blue he says, he ain't doing nothing up here in this apartment until we move. That the carpet is filthy. Umm excuse me. I own a steem cleaner and not only have I cleaned the carpets, but Jim did all the carpets last week. And that he can't use his airconditioner because we use ours and he doesn't want the bill to go up. Then he complains about the gas bill. Umm hello, I don't control what little heat he turns on in the winter, I don't have a gas stove, I don't have a gas dryer, HE DOES!!!!!!! We've been cooking on the grill to conserve the electric. I know why he is being this way. He ways laid off last week, due to not wanting to take a complete physical and blood test for a position at a better company. Now he has that 1100.00 car payment with full coverage insurance to pay for, a second mortage on the house and that big screen tv and now he goes and buys a 1000.00 computer system. It's not my fault his eyes are bigger then his wallet.

He wanted to go to the mountains this past weekend. Umm it was Father's Day and Emma had us over her house for a little cookout. Jim said to Joe, Cindy wants me to spend time with the kids sundaay. Joe tells Jim why don't you just throw her out, give her the kid and 90.00 week childsupport, that way you can go and do as you want. After all I have done for him, taking care of his mom when he had to work and his brothers and sister weren't around, this is what he tells Jim? Some fricken friend he is huh? Rebecca isn't allowed downstairs anymore because she got sick on his carpet and it stained it. Well, I asked him if he wanted me to use my steam cleaner on it, he said no. Plus the dumbass has white carpet. He's the idiot who fed my child hotdogs and chocolate milk right after she got over the flu.

As soon as my son in law gives me the ok, I am house hunting.

My birthday was nice. The teacher gave me a pretty card and 100.00, Emma and Dan bought me a new microwave, Jims parents sent me 25.00. Jim bought me 5.00 in powerball tickets, I LOST, LOL. And I got lots of ecards from all of you which I thank you so very much for. A beautiful card from LJ and one from my hairdresser Rick. We had hotdogs, BBQ Chicken, salad and cake.

There is 3 days of school left. This weekend I will make aan entry and post pics of my birthday and Rebecca's kindergarten graduation. I made video's. I just have to get them on an uncut video like you all do in your journal. I have no idea how, but I will try. I guess that is about it. I just needed to vent I hope I didn't offend anyone with what is going on at the school.

LOVE TO ALL..................CINDY

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Summer is here

  Hopefully I can get this entry made with no interruptions. Rebecca is asleep, the movie, "The Perfect Storm" is on the tv,perfect right? Wrong!!! Jim is talking to me. And what about? Ther service department at a Ford Dealership. Ummm, hello. Can we say boring, lol. How about my birthday, which is tomorrow. Yep, I will be 47 years young. But we ain't doing a thing. Don't have the money for something special. Although I think Emma is cooking us dinner tomorrow, not sure though.

Tomorrow at 9:15am, the kindergarten kids (4 classes of them) are performing 4 songs. Parents who want to watch the show are invited. You know I am going. So is Jim and Rebecca's sister Emma. It is called a Moving Up Concert, instead of a graduation concert. They will be singing the school song, Blue and Gold, God Bless America, My Country Tis of Thee, and a really cool song that goes, Start spreading the news, we're leaving today, we learned our abc's and 123's and learned all the rules, start spreading the news, we're going to first grade, we want to be a part of it, first grade, first grade. Rebecca sounds so cute singing it. She tries to hit high notes, then yawns, lol.

The past 2 weekends I have kept Adrianna, and Rebecca stayed at her sister's. Above is some pictures of my lil granddaughter. She's getting so big. She finally got a couple teeth. Two on the bottom. And wow is she cranky right before they come through. Anyways last weekend Dan and Emma took the kids, Marissa, Daniel and Rebecca to some Fair. A young lady walked up to Rebecca and Marissa and introduced herself and was talking to them a little bit. Then she pulled out 2 photographs of herself and aautographed them for the girls. They thought the lady was Miss America, lol, but it was Miss Southeastern Pennsylvania 2008, Jenna Knopsnyder. On the picture for Rebecca she wrote, Rebecca, Wish for the impossible. Love Jenna. And On Marissa's she wrote, Marissa, Stay beautiful. Love, Jenna. The girls are so proud of their autographed photo's.

I have so much more to write about, but I have not any privacy. Jim keeps walking over here. I hate when he reads over my shoulder. So I am going to cut this short. But before I go, I want to thank Lisa Jo for the lovely birthdaycard I received in the mail today, and also for the picture she sent of Rick and she and the kids. I love the picture and I am putting it in a frame tomorrow and sitting it here on my desk. I will try and make a longer entry over the weekend. Jim's going up to the cabin. Ahhhhhh, peace and quiet for sure, lol.

LOVE TO ALL......................CINDY

Sunday, June 8, 2008

A Note From Angie

Angie asked to spread the word, so that is what I am doing. Here is what Angie wrote:

Lisa's from ~ Lisa's Place of Thoughts & Ramblings, called me just now and told me her computer is TOAST, coputs, bye bye, broke. 

She will be offline totally until she gets to the library then buys a new one

Since I am private and do not have the number of readers she does, would you please copy and paste this and spread the word for her?

Monday, June 2, 2008


If you like Johnny Cash, You must listen to this kid sing and close your eyes and you will think IT IS JOHNNY CASH !!!!!

More info

Today I spent the morning and part of the afternoon over Emma's house, keeping my eye on Marissa. She has to be monitored closely. Pulse taken and written down each hour. Meals, activities written down, but no physical exertion at all. No running, skipping, hopping, jumping, nothing to cause her any stress at all. She has to lay down 30 minutes every 1 1/2 hours so her ankles do not swell, which they were doing yesterday. She's experiencing numbness in her fingers, slight pains in chest when she is up and moving around, and the biggest issue is she cannot fall asleep. This child was up over 24 hours with no sleep. Finally Emma gave her a dose of her Benedryl for her allergies and it caused Marissa to finally fall asleep. Marissa has had an allergy problem since birth. They were at the hospital 12 hours, 5pm yesterday til 5am this morning. Marissa is all wired up to her monitor and she hates it. She says the glue stickers are itchy. The cardiologists office called Emma at 8:30 this morning. She has to go see him wednesday morning. They got her in quick. Marissa will be given an dye injection and have a cat scan and an ultra sound. She is going to have a complete blood work up also. The cardiologists said this type of thing just doesn't happen. It is something that happens before birth. And is rarely detected unless tests are done. She had 3 ECG's last night and all 3 showed abnormality. A specialists checked the results and his conclusion was Wolff Parkinson's White Disorder. He says wednesday after all tests are done and he has the results, he will talk to Emma and Dan about options, surgery being one of them. That means Marissa will be spending a few days in the hospital. The procedure is to burn off the vessels that should not be there, by going up through her upper leg area near her pelvic area.

I want to thank each of you so very much for all your prayers you've sent up for me and my family lately. With what's been happening the past year, we certainly can use them. Things gotta get better soon, right? I sure hope they do. Jim is real upset over this new issue with Marissa. He just left to go over to see her and let her know she is loved by her Poppop.

I won't know anything more until after she goes to see the doctor on wednesday. But as soon as I find out anything I will let you know right away.

Later tonight I have a ton of pictures and video's to post. Jim and I kept our baby grand daughter over night saturday night and Rebecca went to her sister's. Adrianna was sooooooo good for us. She slept all night from 10pm until 6am. I will be back reading your journals starting tonight. I bet I got alot to catch up on in your lives.

Tomorrow in class I am spending the whole day. I'm going to have the kids make get well cards for Marissa. She will like that alot. Well, time to cook dinner. I'll see ya all later tonight. And again Thank you so much for caring.

Love you all.........................CINDY

Prayers for Marissa

My 6 year old grand daughter was taken to the Childrens Hospital late last night. She was complaining of pain on her left side and numbness. She also complained of a headache, and was sweating real bad.  The diagnosis is Marissa has something going on with her heart. She is on a heart monitor for the next 24 hours, and a cardiologists will be calling Emma to set up some appointments for Marissa to be seen by specialists. I will keep you posted on what happens. In the mean time here is something I found out about Wolff Parkinson's this morning.

Wolff-Parkinson-White Syndrome

 What is the heart's normal condition?

In a normal heart, electrical signals use only one path when they move through the heart. This is the atrio-ventricular or A-V node. As the electrical signal moves from the heart's upper chambers (the atria) to the lower chambers (the ventricles), it causes the heart to beat. For the heart to beat properly, the timing of the electrical signal is important.

What is the Wolff-Parkinson-White syndrome?

If there's an extra conduction pathway, the electrical signal may arrive at the ventricles too soon. This condition is called Wolff-Parkinson-White syndrome (WPW). It's in a category of electrical abnormalities called "pre-excitation syndromes."

It's recognized by certain changes on the electrocardiogram, which is a graphical record of the heart's electrical activity. The ECG will show that an extra pathway or shortcut exists from the atria to the ventricles.

Many people with this syndrome who have symptoms or episodes of tachycardia (rapid heart rhythm) may have dizziness, chest palpitations, fainting or, rarely, cardiac arrest. Other people with WPW never have tachycardia or other symptoms. About 80 percent of people with symptoms first have them between the ages of 11 and 50.

How is this syndrome treated?

People without symptoms usually don't need treatment. People with episodes of tachycardia can often be treated with medication. But sometimes such treatment doesn't work. Then they'll need to have more tests of their heart's electrical system.

The most common procedure used to interrupt the abnormal pathway is radiofrequency or catheter ablation. In this, a flexible tube called a catheter is guided to the place where the problem exists. Then that tissue isdestroyed with radiofrequency energy, stopping the electrical pathway. Successful ablation ends the need for medication. Whether a person will be treated with medication or with an ablation procedure depends on several factors. These include the severity and frequency of symptoms, risk for future arrhythmias and patient preference.

Wolff (Wolfe)-Parkinson-White (WPW) is a very rare cause of sudden death. It results from an additional electrical connection between the atria (upper chambers of the heart) and the ventricles (lower chambers of the heart). This extra or accessory electrical pathway is present in approximately 1.5 people per 1,000 people. It runs in families in less than 1% of cases. In the majority it is completely silent and only detected on a routine ECG. In a small proportion of patients the extra electrical pathway allows conduction of the electrical pathway generating an electrical circuit which produces a very rapid heart rate. Most patients tolerate this well but some experience very troublesome palpitations, light-headedness and blackouts. A very small minority of patients may die suddenly from ventricular fibrillation(<0.1% of patients).

Please say a prayer for Marissa.

Things just seem to get worse anymore when it comes to my family. It's like a curse is on us. I keep hoping and praying things will get better, but they only get worse. Does God even hear me?

I am home. I'm ok. Jim and I have talked and things are better between us.