Wednesday, October 31, 2007



Halloween Scare

Darkness falls this halloween eve
spirits rise from a crypt beneath
ghost goblins witches and more
there out there waiting
just outside your door
do you hear their howl
can you hear them moan
their out there waiting
don't go out there alone
behind a tree or under a car
they know your out there
and know where you are
they'll wait and watch
and quietly creep
you won't know their coming
they make not a peep
stay in your house say not a word
daylight will come and the dead go home.

Cindy Sawn

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

No Title, Mind Blank

I have been trying to do an entry now for a couple days. I would start it and just click out of it. My heart has just not been into it. Sunday night was so hard for me. My brother in law and his oldest daughter were sitting and the pain and hurt on their faces nearly ripped my heart out. I wish I could make this all go away and bring my sister back to them. Susie was so beautiful, and looked so peaceful. Her hair was so pretty and so soft. She looked like the angel I know she is. So many people came and paid their respects. Susie was loved by everyone there.

Jim and I and my daughter Emma and her husband Dan and Adrianna first went to my sister Helen's. There she cooked a nice dinner of grilled London broil, peas and a homemade pasta salad. It was very good. I loved her pasta salad and the next time I make it I am using her recipe.

Helen rode with us to the viewing. After we left we went back to Helen's for coffee and cakes. Gotta love those Little Debbies oatmeal and cream sandwich cookies, lol. We all sat and chatted for a bit, then we left to come home. Rebecca was ready for bed when we picked her up. Poor thing was so tired. She was asleep before I even had her covers on her. Tonight my child tells me, Mommy Aunt Susie is in the stone yard right? And I say yes, why? She says, cause her soul went to heaven and now she sleeps with the angels. I had to fight back the tears so I didn't upset her.

Today I kept my grandson for the day. He's not feeling very well and wanted his mommom. Tonight Dan had to call me so I could say good night Daniel because he was crying and wanted me to come tuck him in. He loves his mommom. I took some pics of Daniel and Rebecca playing, but I haven't downloaded them yet. When I do I will post them. Tomorrow I am going to my granddaughter Marissa's parade at school. Yes I will be taking pictures and sharing them with you all. Rebecca's class is doing nothing for halloween, except the teacher is buying cupcakes and juice. No costumes or parade :(

Well, it is going on midnight now and I am tired. I am going to go get some sleep. Or at least try too. Lately I haven't been able to sleep much. I hope everyone has a fun filled halloween and stay safe please. Check all the goodies the kids get before they eat any. I always check.

Love to all.............CINDY

Monday, October 29, 2007

A Thinker

See If You Can Figure Out What
These Words Have In Common......



Are You Peeking Or Have You Already Given Up?

Give It Another Try....
You'll kick yourself when you discover the answer. Go
back and look at them again; think hard. OK... Here
You Go .. Hope You Didn't Cheat.
This Is Cool.


In all of the words listed, if you take the first
letter, place it at the end of the word, and then
spell the word backwards, it will be the same word.
Did you figure it out?

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Til we meet again

Good Morning. I would like to thank 2 special ladies for this above tag. Chrissie who sent this to me and Sugar for adding my sister's name to it.

I ask you all to go to a previous entry I made titled, My Beautiful Sister. In the comments section you will find a comment left by Susie's husband (my brother in law) addressed to all of you. My heart breaks for Mike, because I know he is hurting over the loss of his wife/bestfriend. Tonight I will join Mike and so many other wonderful people who loved Susie so very much, to say goodbye to our Susie.

So many of you got to read her journal and hear her stories of her life and her family, her beliefs and disbeliefs, but I wish you could of known her in person. Susie could walk into a room and the love would just surround her. She would smile and all around her would feel how much she loved life, her family and her friends. Everyone who met her would love her. She just had a way about her where hate could not enter in her life or anyone else's who was around her. Love, warmth and kindness is what Susie was about.

Tonight there will be many tears shed for this remarkable lady. But my tears will not be tears of sadness. They will be tears of happiness, because I know Susie is making her journey into God's kingdom. In heaven she will no longer feel pain or sadness. She will be the beautiful angel I always told her she was. I will not mourn her death, but I will celebrate her life that she shared with us here on earth, and celebrate the new life she will now have in heaven. She will be welcomed into god's kingdom not only by our lord and god but by so many who knew her here on earth. It warms my heart knowing she will be up in heaven watching over my niece Sandra who passed away 4 years ago at the young age of 18, my nephew Bryant who passed away at the age of 5 mos old, and my grandson Michael who passed away just hours before his birth. I just know in my heart Susie will take them under her wings and keep them forever by her side. I hope she is given the opportunity to meet my mother. My mom was like Susie in so many ways. Always wanting to do something for others and never asking for anything in return. I think they would become the greatest of friends if they met.

So Susie, as you walk across the Strawberry Patch rainbow through the clouds in the sky and journey to your new home, go with peace in your heart. We here on earth will miss you, but we will be just fine. You have left a piece of you here on earth in our hearts and also with the two beautiful children you blessed this world with.

Rest in Peace my sister, and spread your wings and fly. I love you.

Your sister always and forever..............Cindy

Friday, October 26, 2007

Got a minute?

If you have a minute to spare could you go light a candle for Susie and her family. Thank you so much for all your kind comments and prayers.

There is also someone very special to my sister Susie that I want to ask for prayers for. It is Susie's cousin Donna. Donna was there all the years with Susie that I wasn't. Susie always told me, Donna was not just her cousin, she was her best friend and a sister to her. Donna, please know I am so sorry about Susie. I know she loved you so very much. Susie and I would chat and she would tell me all the stories of you growing up together. I want to thank you with all my heart for loving, caring and sharing your life with Susie. You are my baby sister's family and you are my family too. I am so thankful we got to meet at Susie's daughter's birthday party. I could see for myself how special you really are and why my sister loved you so much.

I am doing a little better today. Still numb and in shock over all this. Thank you Lisa for our chat last night. It helped alot, and thank you to my cousin Carmen for our chat this morning. She always makes me feel better. And to my sister Helen who called me this morning and my sister Lucy who called me the other day. Helen has invited Jim and I and Dan and Emma to her house for a light supper before the viewing sunday night. I think we may take her up on the offer. Helen will then ride with us.

I have a favor to ask of you all. could you please click on the link below and light a candle for Susie's husband and their daughters? They are gonna need all the prayers we can give them to help with the healing of their broken hearts.

Again thank you all so much for caring and for being here for me. It means alot to me.


Love to all.............  Cindy



Thursday, October 25, 2007

Thank you all

I want to thank all of you for all your prayers, emails and ecards. It means so much to me to have such wonderful friends/family here in jland and outside jland. I love you all so much.

Today was such a hard day. It seemed like everything made me cry. I held my granddaughter and cried, because my sister Susie will never get to meet her. I went grocery shopping and in the bakery department I spotted a box of Suzie Q cakes, and yep I cried. I had 3 people ask me today how I was doing and before I could say anything I started crying.

I still can't believe Susie is gone. I keep hoping this is all a bad dream and when I wake up she will still be here. I wanna grab the phone and call her and say, Hey baby girl, it's me your big sis. My body is numb and I feel as though I am walking or moving in slow motion. My eyes burn from all the tears shed, and are so swollen and red.

Yes, Susie was my half sister, but that did not matter to me. What matters is that she was my sister and I couldn't love her anymore then I already did. Susie was also the author of the journal Strawberry Patch. My sister loved the characters of strawberry shortcake. She got me started journaling, and I am so thankful that she did. I have made really wonderful friends here in jland, and I feel so welcomed here. I too was saddened when Susie left jland.

I would do anything to get my sister back in this world, but I know she is happy up in heaven. I bet she's right there along side my niece Sandy helping her care for my grandson Michael and my nephew Bryant.

Rest in Peace my baby sister. You will forever be in my heart and thoughts.


Wednesday, October 24, 2007

My Beautiful Sister

I have come here tonight with sad news. It is so hard for me to write this right now, because I have been crying my eyes out for hours now. My dear sister Susie who got me to journal here in jland, passed away last night. I won't go into details yet, because I want permission from her husband first. She was only 34 years old. She left behind 2 beautiful little girls, and her husband. My body is numb. I just can't believe she is gone. I just wrote to her a couple weeks ago, and hadn't heard back from her yet, now I never will. To my sister Susie, Rest in Peace sweetie. I love you so much, and I will miss you.

I ask for your prayers for her husband and their daughters and for me too. I can't understand why it was her time, she was so young.




Saturday, October 20, 2007

Farewell to the Sands

This video is a tribute to one of the best casino's I ever had the pleasure of visiting. It is the Sands casino, that was located in Atlantic City, New Jersey. I went there for the first time when it just opened and I walked in with 30.00 to gamble with and walked out with 250.00 in winnings. The link below is the celebration of the casino being taken down to make room for an even bigger casino. The video is full of music and fireworks and at the end it shows the coming down of the building. It is 8 minutes long, but so worth the watching. Click on the link and when the page comes up, click the Enlarge button above the bigger screen with the advertisement so you can get a better view. - Video Library

More for the kids.

Here's a few more sites I found for the kids. I even found some things I'd like to color too. Yea, I know what can I say? I'm a big kid too, lol.



Autumn Preschool Activities and Crafts

Holidays and Events Preschool Activities and Crafts

Turkey Coloring Page | Pilgrim Theme | Thanksgiving | Preschool Printable Activities

Alphabet Letter C Candy Corn Zaner-Bloser Manuscript Handwriting Practice Worksheet - Preschool Printables

Feeling better

Hello, everyone. I am feeling alot better today. I want to thank everyone for your wonderful comments and advice with my last entry. You guys are just awesome, and really know how to make a person feel better about themself.

Well, let's see, what have I been up too the past 48 hours? I got caught up on journals. I have about 10 left, but those are from last night and this morning. I did have 161 journal alerts, lol. Not complaining though. I love reading about all of you. Your all like my family and when your sad I am sad, when your hurt I am hurt.

I left Rebecca home from school yesterday. I didn't want to chance driving the van with the brake making so much noise. Jim finally replaced the brake on the drivers side last night. He said there was nothing left on the brake pad, the caliper is fine, but we need a new rotor. It is all chewed up inside and will never pass inspection. So it looks like we'll be investing in a rotor real soon. Jim's outside right now replacing the other side's brakes. He knows I complain if something is wrong with our vehicle and he had better fix it, lol.

So Rebecca and I stayed home, and colored, cleaned up her toys, watched a movie about a mountain man and his white wolf. She enjoyed the movie as much as I did, or maybe it was just the popcorn I made, lol. Later my daughter Emma came over and took me grocery shopping. This time we went to SHOPRITE, instead of ACME or SHOPNBAG. I spent 161.00, yikes, lol. But my shopping cart was filled to the top. I can't say much for their produce prices, they are expensive. But their cold cuts, cheap. At ACME I pay 8.99 a pound for Virginia Baked Ham, but at SHOPRITE it was 5.99 a pound. It is Rebecca's favorite ham. Wheat bread, 99 cents a loaf. The best deal was the London Broils. I bought 2 of them. One for 2.64, and the other for 3.18. Another bargain which is Rebecca's favorite is Campbell's Tomato soup, 5 can's for 2.00, and Cheerios for 1.99 a box. Both are packaged in Breast Cancer awareness colors. Part of the sale is given towards the research to find a cure. I'll take a picture of the Tomato soup labels and post it. The labels are pink instead of red. So cute. I usedEmma's shoprite discount card, and with her purchases and mine, we got a certificate for a free turkey or ham. So we will get a ham, to go along with a turkey for Thanksgiving dinner. I always make a turkey and a ham. And all the fixings to go with both. Same thing for christmas too.

When we got outside to go to the car, the sky opened up and it started pouring. Emma went and got the car and brought it up to the store so we could load up our groceries. She helped me carry them all upstairs and then she left to go home. Rebecca helped me put away the groceries. She knows exactly where everything goes too, lol. I do the freezer items though. Then I fixed her a sandwich and she had some grapes and a glass of milk, watched a little tv and into her jammies and bed she went. Around 9:pm we were hit with strong winds and heavy downpours of rain with a little lightning too.

We had to use the airconditioning last night. It was so hot and humid. 85 degree's in my apartment. I cannot sleep when it is that hot in my bedroom. I would not be able to breathe. Storm must of knocked out verizon cause I lost my DSL last night. It just would not reconnect. So I shut down the computer, and turned it back on 5:30 this morning and it was working again.

I watched 2 great shows last night. The first was Lisa Williams show. Wow, is she good. I would love to talk to her about my Dad and maybe find out what really happened in his death. My gut still tells me he was murdered and that an accidental drowning was not what really happened. I forgot the name of the second show, but it was also on Lifetime, and was 4 Psychics who had to guess different things, such as who was an excon, what happened in a hotel room and who's dog belonged to who. I loved both those shows. I will definately be watching them again. CSI on thursday night was awesome. She said yes, I was so happy I wanted to email Lisa and tell her, but didn't want to spoil her hearing it on the show. LOL.

Today I am feeling happy. At around noon my baby granddaughter Adrianna is coming over and staying for a few hours. I love cuddling her in my arms. Jim is happy she's coming over. He doesn't get to see her as much. Rebecca asked if she could hold the baby again. I will let her and I'll take pictures of her holding the baby. She really loves her new niece.

Jim just left to go to Target. He is picking up a black ink cartridge for my printer, batteries for my camera and computer mouse, and a big box of crayola crayons for Rebecca. This kid goes through crayons like water, jeez.

Well, I better get my butt up and get dressed. I'm still in my jammies, lol. I want to clean my kitchen before the baby gets here. I hope you all have a great weekend.

Just wanted also to ask for prayers for those here in need of them. Sugar, that her mattress comes soon. Jeannette and her grandson Daniel, for good health, Angie for her burnt buns and that it isn't so painful when she sits down, lol. Jeanne for her foot and her daughter Kelly for her knee, and Lisa for her MS and the pain it is causing her. I know there are so many more in need of these prayers, and believe me I pray for everyone here in Jland every day.

I better go now. I am getting hungry, haven't had breakfast yet.


Love to all.............................

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Thursday, October 18, 2007

Slumpy Frumpy Feeling

  I am going to try to make an attempt to write this entry. All this week so far, I've been kind of down. I do not know exactly why. Tired maybe. Depressed maybe, who knows. I have no energy level, zilch, nada, none. I force myself to get up and do anything. I have gone over my daughter Emma's a couple times this week, and you all know how much I love my grandson, but going there has even been annoying me. Noise, everywhere, maybe I am just wanting some alone time, some quiet time away from everyone. Health wise I feel fine, it's just this BLAHHHHHHHH feeling that I can't shake. I had someone tell me that maybe if I got up and moved around more I would feel better. Ok, easier said then done. I have one good lung, the other one in bad condition from chemo. I have limited use of my right arm caused by nerves severed during my surgery to remove the 4 tumors and 4 lympnodes in my right side of my neck. In 1994 I was living in Wyoming and was involved in an accident. I was parked, and some idiot peeled wheels in reverse and slammed into the front of my car, totaling my car and throwing me into the steering wheel breaking my glasses, and with my feet automatically stepping on brakes even though my car was in park, I pushed my right leg up into my hip joint about half an inch and my left leg has been numb between my thigh and knee since then. I stand up for more then 10 minutes I feel as though I have been severed at the waist and want to fall over. Not to mention when I am in pain, I get stressed and my neck tightens making me feel as though I am choking and gasping for air. Just standing at my kitchen sink washing dishes is a major task for me. I sometimes stay home from functions because I feel as though I'd be a burden if I went. Like Jim taking Rebecca to the park. I have to sit down most of the time there if I go. What hurts the most are the whispers and the stares I get when I do go out. Both coming from adults and children. Whispers like, If she lost weight she wouldn't need a cane, or OMG look at that scar on her neck. Sometimes I just wanna yell, SHUT UP to these people whispering about me, but also sometimes I just wanna go off and have a good cry. Sometimes I ask myself, Why me? Why do I have to go through all this when all I have ever done was help people? I've never asked to be paid back from any of those I helped. Even though I go through all this on a daily basis I still force myself to do for others. I will still help when asked. I will always be there if I am needed. Oh well, life goes on right?

Jim has to check out the front drivers side brakes when he gets home from work. It is grinding and making a loud noise. He said it probably needs brake pads. I hope that is all it is. He's gonna pick them up on his lunch break today and replace the pads when he gets home. He's an excellent mechanic, and I don't want no other person working on our vehicles.

Jims friend Brian (co-worker) said his SIL is looking for a place to move. So when she moves out Brian said we could rent the house she is in. It is in Trevose, PA. A very good neighborhood, great schools. I am keeping my fingers crossed she finds a place soon. I really need to move. Keep your fingers crossed she moves.

Rebecca has a substitute teacher today. An older teacher. She is a sweet lady, but I think after today she won't be a substitute again for Rebecca's class, lol. There is about 8 kids in this class who are terrors. They won't listen, sit, be quiet, stop hitting others for no one. There was 3 kids dismissed from school for lack of immunizations. They still aren't back in school. The parents of the terrors have not come to school about their childs behavior. They have until tomorrow, and then those children will be suspended until the parent comes in. No phone calls will be accepted, the teacher wants to meet with them face to face. Otherwise she has no choice but to expell them from her class permanently. This morning I watched this one kid walk right up to another kid in another clasroom line and hit him in the face for no reason. Then he went over to a kid in his own class and pushed him down and kicked him. I yelled, knock it off and get in line. He looked up and said F---K you lady. OMG, I wanted to whoop his ass. I am going to talk to the teacher tomorrow when she comes back. She's been hinting how she has no aid to help her in the classroom. I am going to volunteer myself 3 days a week to help her in the classroom. Maybe it would help me get out of my frumpy feeling. And also give me a peace of mind those 3 days that my child is ok.

Well, I guess that's about it for now. I am going to go and try to do up the dishes before I have to leave to go pick up Rebecca from school. I hope everyone is enjoying their day. Tomorrow they are calling for heavy rain and thunder storms for Philadelphia. Yea, I love it. Keeps the bad eggs indoors in the neighborhood. Speaking of that. Last night, the spy chopper and numerous police cars were in alley behind my house last night. They caught a guy who had just shot someone. Sick people in this city. And tuesday morning a Septa bus, ran a lady over. She is ok, he ran over her legs. But I se a law suit coming against Septa for sure. In case you want to know what Septa is, they are big public transportation buses.

OK, gonna go.

Love to all........................CINDY

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

My baby is sick

First I would like to apologize to you for not getting to your journals the past few days. I have been busy, had a major migrain, and now I have a sick child home from school today. Rebecca woke me up at 12:30 last night. She had gotten sick all over her bed and herself. So, I had to wash her down and change her, change her linens and wash down her bed. Get her settled back into bed. She woke up at 7:15, covered all over on her stomach with that hives rash again and a fever. I gave her the meds and in 20 minutes she was fine, but I still kept her home. I called the doctor and described what has been going on. He says Rebecca's body is trying to get the chicken pox, but her immune system is fighting it off. It should pass soon and she would be fine. But he said if by the end of next week if it is continuing to bring her in and not bother making an appointment, just come in. He also said to continue the Benedryl and Tylenol like I have been doing. I've been giving her iced water all morning, she said it makes her feel cool.

So, I may not get to your journals today either, because Rebecca is keeping me busy tending to her. I have these few minutes to type this because she is drinking iced water and watching a cartoon. OOps there she went and spilled her water, be right back. Ok I am back but I am going to go now. Please say a prayer for her, and one for me that I can make it through this day. LOL

I will get to your journals soon, I promise. I have kept all of them.


LOVE:         CINDY






Saturday, October 13, 2007


 Awwww, this is my daughter Emma when she was 5 1/2 years old in kindergarten. We were living on an army base in FT. Irwin, California at the time and Emma went to school on base. Three and a half years living in the mojave desert was enough for me. I was glad to move back east, lol. Anyways I just wanted to share this picture with you all. She was my first baby. I was 18 1/2 yrs old when I had her. She has grown into a beautiful, loving, caring, giving woman and a great mother to her 3 kids. Emma is 27years old and will be 28 on January 7th.


 Then at 40 years old when I thought for sure I was getting the flu, I found out it was because I was pregnant with my second child, Rebecca. Some flu huh, lol. And having a baby at 40. I had 3 doctor's tell me I should get an abortion, because my baby would most likely be born deformed or retarted, or I would miscarry. I told them no fricking way. It has taken me almost 22 years to have another baby after being told I'd never have another child after Emma was born, and there was no way I was going to abort this child. I knew in my heart she would be perfect and she was and is.

I am very proud of my two daughters. Emma grew up to be a wonderful woman with so much love to give, and my Rebecca is just like her. She shows so much love towards Jim and I as her big sister did. I am truely blessed with 2 great kids. And if I had it to do all over again, would I? Your darn tootin I would. LOL. Where is all this coming from? I don't really know. I was sitting here just thinking about my life and how happy I am here to live it. I have a great husband, 2 beautiful kids, 3 beautiful grandchildren. I battled through cancer and I won. I just feel so darn blessed and lucky. I have a wonderful extended family family, and very dear friends both on line and off line. What more could I ask for? Ok yea there is something I really want, and that is to move to a better area where my baby girl can go to a better school. Jim and I have decided that instead of looking for a house when income tax return comes we're just gonnago ahead and get a nice apartment in a nice complex. But I have 2 stipulations on that. 1. It has to be a downstairs apartment, because it is getting harder and harder for me to do steps now, and 2. It has to have a dishwasher, lol. That is a must.

Rebecca woke up this morning with a few more spots. I gave her another dose of Benedryl and Tylenol, put her into a warm oatmeal bath, and she has been fine all day. Tonight before she went to bed I gave her another dose of Benedryl, just in case. She is sound asleep.

Today Jim thought he'd do a good thing and bake some corn muffins. They smelled good and looked good until you went to remove them from the pan, where they crumbled and broke into pieces. He was so upset. He said he followed the directions on the box. I bought 10 boxes of Jiffy Corn Muffin mix. They were 10 for a 1.00. He really wanted corn muffins to go with the roast beef I was fixing for dinner. So, I told him I would make another batch. He doesn't know my secret. I use 2 boxes of the mix, and the milk and eggs it calls for, but I also mix in a cup of flour, and a half teaspoon baking powder along with a 1/3 cup of honey. When they were done, I gave him a nice warm muffin smothered in butter to sample. Man did he have a big smile on his face when he swallowed that first bite. He looked at me and said, From now on honey, you make the muffins, lol. I guess he liked them. He ate 2 more with his dinner tonight. Even Rebecca ate 2 of them today, and she never eats anything like that. I was happy.

Well, I guess that is about it for tonight. I am going to go get into my nightgown, pour a glass of diet pepsi and play some POGO for a while then go to bed. Tomorrow afternoon I am getting some "ME" time. Jim and Rebecca are invited over to one of his friends from work who has 7yr old twin girls to watch the Eagles game. Rebecca is so excited she is going to meet these girls. I know she will have a blast too. Take care all, and I hope your having a great weekend.


LOVE TO ALL.............................



Friday, October 12, 2007


My child gave me a huge scare tonight. She got out of bed and came into the livingroom with her face all red and red blotches all over her sides and back. I thought OMG she has caught that target rash Daniel had. I had nothing here to stop her itching or reduce her fever. I called Emma, told her what was happening. She came over here with all her medications. It isn't the target rash cause there's no bulls eye in the center. Emma asked if she was allergic to anything cause it looks like the same rash Marissa get's when she eats strawberries. I was thinking nothing was different today or tonight that she has eatten. Then Emma asked about soap. It hit me then. While I was cooking dinner tonight, I was also washing dishes. Rebecca would go over to the dishpan and play in the bubbles while I was cooking, and I caught her rubbing them on her face and sides and stomach. Where the red blothes are, is the places she was rubbing the bubbles. It is AJAX lemon dish soap. I think maybe she is allergic to it? Can that be possible? Emma rubbed Cortizone-10 cream on all the red spots, and we gave her Benedryl and Tylenol. About 30 minutes later her face started clearing up and so did the other blotches. There is 2 spots where it is bubbled a little, like when you get a bad sunburn and it bubbles a little before it drys up and peels. Emma stayed about 30 minutes, and in the 30 minutes she was here it cleared up alot. I was freaking out. But I calmed down after Rebecca said she felt alot better. She even asked to go back to bed a few minutes after Emma left. I go in there every 15 minutes and check on her. I won't be sleeping very well tonight, I'll be too worried about Rebecca. If it's still on her in the morning I am taking her to the doctor. He is open saturdays til noon. And they do accept emergency walk ins. Just if you can say a little prayer that it all goes away and she is fine in the morning and she can sleep tonight.

Love to all.................Cindy

Happy Friday

  I am so glad today is friday. This has been a long week. Above are pictures I have taken over the past few days. I just love getting pics of my new granddaughter and all her facial expressions. She is just a sweetheart. I wish she'd grow a little more. She's so tiny and petite. In the pictures she looks bigger, but she's not. She's very tiny. Daniel won't give her kisses. He won't say why, lol. You can see him in the pics playing with his favorite toy. A wooden Thomas trainset. Ang, this kid loves it and after he is done playing he will put it all back, so it doesn't get lost or his big sister touches it, lol. Daniel is 100% well now, from that awful target rash he had. No scars, swelling is gone, and everything is back to normal color and size.

I'm going over there again today. I was going to stay home today, but I have 2 loads of laundry I want to wash, so Emma said bring it on over. So as soon as I make this entry I will be heading out the door.

Well, I hope one of the other schools I filled out paper work for contact me soon. I want Rebecca out of this school. There are 2 boys in her class Sabastion and Joshua, who are the most misbehaved kids I have ever seen. They are rude, ignorant, and have no respect for anyone or anything. They both are in trouble everyday, even the teacher has a hard time controlling them. She has already been kicked by Sabastion. She has sent numerous notes home to the parents and the parents have not yet come to the school about their kids. These are kindergarten kids. If something isn't done now, they will grow up and become even worse. Rebecca has already been pushed down and her stockings torn, jabbed in the face with a pencil, punched in the hand and had her arm twisted. This morning Joshua was in line and pushed a kid who fell into Rebecca but I grabbed her before she hit the ground. Well, I had enough. I grabbed that kids arm and told him one more time he pushes anyone or hits or hurts my daughter ever again I will beat his ass right there and if his mom comes to the school I will also beat her ass for the way she just leaves her child there and does nothing about his behavior. And I held his arm until the teacher came out and I told her what he had done and what Isaid to him. Even a few of the parents who do stay there with their kids said they were going to do the same thing. Out of 25 kids their is only 5 of us parents who stand there with our kids. I told the teacher maybe she should suspend them from her class until the parents show up. She said she is going to talk with the principal about this matter. I told her us parents who do stay there are very upset about these kids behavior with our kids. Each month the kids are given a Behavior Chart that we sign daily. It is graded as: 1 POOR  2 FAIR  3 GOOD and  4 is EXCELLENT. Mrs. Fitzpatrick told me that Rebecca and O'Saka are her only students who get 4's daily. And each friday a student with a perfect behavior chart gets to pick from the prize box. So today Rebecca and O'Saka get to pick a prize.  The past few days Rebecca has had homework and she has done very well. She's gotten all stars on her papers. I am glad to see even with the disruption in her class with these bad kids she still is able to learn and do so well.

My grand daughter Marissa is also doing well in her school. This week she was elected as Star Pupil of the week. I am so proud of her. She loves school, loves her teacher and has made a few friends. Emma filled out paperwork with the school system and Marissa was approved for reduced lunches. So for 2.00 a week Marissa has lunch provided by the school. To me her school seems money hungry. Because they are totally different then from Rebecca's school, where they supply breakfast, lunch and snacks for free.

Next week I am going to buy from the school 2 sweatshirts with the school's name on them for Rebecca for gym class. And I have to go and get her a few long sleeved white shirts from the Rainbow store and some dark blue knee high socks and thick stockings. These little kids have to stand outside in the morning and wait for their teachers to come out and get them, and I do not want my child freezing while standing there waiting.

Well, I guess that is about it for now. Except that I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the fall weather we are finally having.



Love to all................................

Sunday, October 7, 2007


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Thank you Sugar for making me this awesome tag. I love it.

I had a very nice day today. I awakened at 5am but I went back to sleep and slept until 10am. I was so rested. I needed it too. Jim had already made the coffee, fed Rebecca her breakfast. Around 11am we got ready and headed out the door to pick my granddaughter Marissa up. Daniel was asleep, awwwwww. We took the kids to the Castle playground and they had a great time. There wasn't much shade for me to sit in. I got really hot and my throat felt as though it was going to close up on me, so after 2 1/2 hours we had to leave.

Jim took us all to Wendys for lunch. Man that chocolate frosty felt good going down my throat. The girls also enjoyed theirs. Along with their chicken nuggets and french fries with lots of ketchup. They ate every bit of their lunch too. Afterwards we took Marissa home, and came home ourselves. I was so exhausted, mostly from the heat. Poured myself a big glass of cold lemonade sat in the airconditioning and cooled off for a few minutes.

Jim didn't get to the laundry mat yesterday, so he went tonight. While he was at the laundry mat, I gave Rebecca her bath and shampoo'd and conditioned her hair. She was full of sand from the playground sandbox. She got into her jammies and relaxed on the couch watching tv. Jim came home with the laundry and I folded it all. He put the towels in the bathroom on the shelf for me. The rest of the clothes are folded and sitting here in the basket. I will put them away tomorrow.

Rebecca got up at 10pm tonight complaining of a sore throat. Some medicine and cool water and she is back in bed, hopefully she sleeps through the night. This is her third sore throat in the past few months. I hope she doesn't have to have her tonsils out. If her throat still hurts by the end of the day tomorrow I will take her to the doctors.

No school tomorrow due to it being Columbus Day. Rebecca and I are staying home. Jim's gonna take the van to work. Their saying record heat tomorrow, so we will be indoors with the A/C on. I don't have much housework to do tomorrow, so I can spend some time getting caught up on everyone's journals. Yes, I am behind again, but tomorrow I will fix that.

Well, I guess I am going to go to bed now. My back is hurting sitting in this chair. I hope everyone has had a wonderful weekend, and your week goes by without any drama or heartache. So, goodnight all and I will see you in the morning.

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Saturday, October 6, 2007

Something to share

This was sent to me by a dear friend and I think it is just beautiful, and wanted to share it with you all.


Have a wonderful evening.        Cindy


I am so glad it is saturday. This past week has been very tiring. I have been going to bed before 10pm. Some nights by 9:30, and that just isn't me. I am never in bed before midnight. But my body is tired and it needed sleep. All week long I have been on the go. Running errands, babysitting, cleaning, cooking, back and forth to school with Rebecca. I've had no time for myself at all. The menopause symptoms have been kicking my butt all week with major hot flashes, night sweats. There was moments I just wanted to run away. It was where's this, when's that, do this do that, I wanted to scream and hide. Yesterday while at the pharmacy I checked my blood pressure. 190/110, so back on the meds I went. I also took a Stress Tab too. I feel very calm today.

Jim did alot of cleaning today. He cleaned up the kitchen, did the dishes and mopped the floor. He also cleaned all the fans, took out the trash and later he is going to the laundry mat. Tomorrow we are picking up Marissa and Daniel and taking them to a playground that looks like a castle and has a huge sand box and letting them play. Then we're taking them to lunch. I'll take lots of pictures to share with you all.

My son in law went to the doctor's. He was really hurting and feeling very run down. The doctor said Dan has every symptom of LYME Disease, and ordered blood work. He finds out the results this up coming week. He gave Dan pain killers and antibiotics to take until then. Dan thinks a tick bit him on the ankle when he was in New Jersey at a BBQ.

We are now up to 307 murders in the city of Philadelphia. Sickening isn't it? City of brotherly love. Yea right, so why they killing each other. A 4yr old child was shot and killed just 3 blocks from my house by a drive by shooting. How sad, we can't even let our children play outdoors without fear of them being kidnapped or killed.

Well, that's about it. I am being rushed. I have to go to the store for dinner fixings. And I really don't feel like it. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Love to all............................


Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Still here

Just want to say hi and let you know I am still here. I just been so busy the past few days. Sorry to hear Penny has passed on. But I truely believe that lovely lady is in heaven spreading her wings and singing with the angels. I will probably not make a decent entry till the weekend. I have been trying to get caught up on journals though. I have quite a few more to read and comment, so if I haven't visited you I will soon. Gotta go now. Have a great day.

Love you all....................CINDY