Tuesday, October 30, 2007

No Title, Mind Blank

I have been trying to do an entry now for a couple days. I would start it and just click out of it. My heart has just not been into it. Sunday night was so hard for me. My brother in law and his oldest daughter were sitting and the pain and hurt on their faces nearly ripped my heart out. I wish I could make this all go away and bring my sister back to them. Susie was so beautiful, and looked so peaceful. Her hair was so pretty and so soft. She looked like the angel I know she is. So many people came and paid their respects. Susie was loved by everyone there.

Jim and I and my daughter Emma and her husband Dan and Adrianna first went to my sister Helen's. There she cooked a nice dinner of grilled London broil, peas and a homemade pasta salad. It was very good. I loved her pasta salad and the next time I make it I am using her recipe.

Helen rode with us to the viewing. After we left we went back to Helen's for coffee and cakes. Gotta love those Little Debbies oatmeal and cream sandwich cookies, lol. We all sat and chatted for a bit, then we left to come home. Rebecca was ready for bed when we picked her up. Poor thing was so tired. She was asleep before I even had her covers on her. Tonight my child tells me, Mommy Aunt Susie is in the stone yard right? And I say yes, why? She says, cause her soul went to heaven and now she sleeps with the angels. I had to fight back the tears so I didn't upset her.

Today I kept my grandson for the day. He's not feeling very well and wanted his mommom. Tonight Dan had to call me so I could say good night Daniel because he was crying and wanted me to come tuck him in. He loves his mommom. I took some pics of Daniel and Rebecca playing, but I haven't downloaded them yet. When I do I will post them. Tomorrow I am going to my granddaughter Marissa's parade at school. Yes I will be taking pictures and sharing them with you all. Rebecca's class is doing nothing for halloween, except the teacher is buying cupcakes and juice. No costumes or parade :(

Well, it is going on midnight now and I am tired. I am going to go get some sleep. Or at least try too. Lately I haven't been able to sleep much. I hope everyone has a fun filled halloween and stay safe please. Check all the goodies the kids get before they eat any. I always check.

Love to all.............CINDY


  1. so sorry for your loss, Cindy.  I hope you get some rest tonight.

  2. I have to say your baby girl is such a cutie! : )  I know it has all been difficult on you but you are doing what you can to get on with your life.  Life is the key.  Concentrate on what you hold dear, and that includes the memories you will always have of your sister.  


  3. I know this past week has been so difficult for you and the entire family.  I am beyond words as to how to let you know I care and I am so sorry for what you must be feeling.  That Becca will always be a cutie pie and her personality shines as big as your heart.

    Love you dear sweet lady,

  4. I know Susie is up there among the angels of Heaven Cindy...
    love  ya,

  5. Awwwwwww Cindy I have been thinking of you alot this week, I wish I could give you a great big hug, loved the pictures, Love You Lisa XO

  6. I'm so sorry for your loss, Cindy. I hope you get some good sleep tonight. Enjoyed the pictures! Your baby girl is a dolly!!
    Love ya,
    Pam xoxoxox

  7. You guys have a safe Halloween too. We only go to houses we know. I'm not all that worried about candy. Better to be safe than sorry.
    Here's a hug for you just because I know you need one.
    Take care, Chrissie

  8. It takes time for the pain to heal Cin and I hope our prayers help in that case.Rebbeca's pictures are lovely,she is a very happy child you can see that in those gorgeous big brown eyes as you say.Prayers still continueing for all of you to help heal the pain.I hope your little Grandson soon feels much better too.Have  al ovely Halloween if it's possible.Take Care God Bless Kath
    astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

  9. Hi Cindy,  what lovely photo#s  she sure is gorgeous.  We are still all here for you and keeping you and the family in our thoughts and prayers. Love Sybil x

  10. Ohhh,she is such a cutie ,adorable...
    I feel for you and what you are going through.
    ((Big Cyber-Hugs))

  11. So so sad there is just no way out of this now but time. There is nothing I feel I can do for you but pray. Im glad you could write I know the pain must be monumental. I think having your grandson around is good for you. Babies can do wonderfous things for you

  12. I know things are difficult, but just showing Rebecca's pictures helps. She's such a sweetie pie and makes me smile.
    I sure hope you have a nice Halloween with your kids.
    ((((((((((((BIG HUGS))))))))))))

  13. oh I have never seen a picture of you. funny how we all have ideas of what someone looks like. It sure makes one see things differently. It makes it real and I just wnat to hug you!!!! I love all the pics of the kids

  14. It must be so very hard on you all and what Rebecca said brought a lump to my throat.  Nice to see you are writing though and thanks for sharing the pictures with us dear friend xxxxx


  15. (((((((((((((((((((((((((( Cindy ))))))))))))))))))))))) I am sorry that your still aching. Take some time for you and only you, don't worry about here, we are not going anywhere and we understand.  Kids are so sweet, that Rebecca of yours is a doll.
    Love you

  16. I can only wish you strength, Cindy.

  17. Cindy I'm so sorry to hear the pain you are in. Only time can heal. Try and get some rest when you can. Sending prayers and hugs to you and Susies family.
    Sorry to hear Daniel is not feeling well either.
    Don't worry about any entries we'll all still be here.
    Get some rest
    Love carol xxx

  18. Must be a very rough time for all right now...
    have a nice time today....

  19. Sunday must have been so hard on you and everyone. I'm so sorry you lost your sister.
    I love your pictures how cute. I remember when my kids were younger they had parades and would go all over the town. It was so cute.

  20. Me again,if you got aan alert that I went private-I really didn't-i was getting an entry 'just right' and went private to do it-didn't know they sent out alerts-why don't they tell us these things.ANYWAY,I'm still public
    Happy Halloween

  21. Rebecca is such a ham with the camera!  Enjoy your day.

  22. This must be a very hard time for you Cindy. Glad you all made it through Sunday. Your daughter is gorgeous and so photogenic! Have a safe Halloween. Jeannette xx  http://journals.aol.co.uk/jlocorriere05/Welcometomytravels  

  23. I know the family is suffering right now, & there'll be dark times ahead. May God send an angel to comfort & guide.
    God bless,

  24. i worry about you and you falling into a bad depression..dont you ever say bad things about yourself in those pics...YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL LADY....i am blessed to know you and i can not imagine the pain you have went thru in the last week.
    XO lj

  25. May God send comfort to all of you. Hope Daniel feels better soon. Helen

  26. Praying for your family Cindy to send you comfort.  Rebecca is so cute.
    Hugs to all of you,

  27. Cindy, I have so many alerts to read as I have been away, so decided to start at the top. I think I have missed a chunk of yours and am in shock as I read. I am so sorry to read of your loss. My thoughts are with you, and all of your family.
    Gaz xxx

  28. I am so so sorry... prayers for comfort in your time of grief!

    be well,

  29. Dear Cindy I am sorry for your loss ,I hope you are able to get some sleep ,.Your pictures are lovely what a dear little girl you have ,,love Jan xx

  30. I am sorry about your loss.
    It is sweet that Daniel wants his mommom. Grandkids are so precious.
    Rebecca does have a wonderful smile and eyes. You can see her joy and love of life in her face.