I want to thank all of you for all your prayers, emails and ecards. It means so much to me to have such wonderful friends/family here in jland and outside jland. I love you all so much.
Today was such a hard day. It seemed like everything made me cry. I held my granddaughter and cried, because my sister Susie will never get to meet her. I went grocery shopping and in the bakery department I spotted a box of Suzie Q cakes, and yep I cried. I had 3 people ask me today how I was doing and before I could say anything I started crying.
I still can't believe Susie is gone. I keep hoping this is all a bad dream and when I wake up she will still be here. I wanna grab the phone and call her and say, Hey baby girl, it's me your big sis. My body is numb and I feel as though I am walking or moving in slow motion. My eyes burn from all the tears shed, and are so swollen and red.
Yes, Susie was my half sister, but that did not matter to me. What matters is that she was my sister and I couldn't love her anymore then I already did. Susie was also the author of the journal Strawberry Patch. My sister loved the characters of strawberry shortcake. She got me started journaling, and I am so thankful that she did. I have made really wonderful friends here in jland, and I feel so welcomed here. I too was saddened when Susie left jland.
I would do anything to get my sister back in this world, but I know she is happy up in heaven. I bet she's right there along side my niece Sandy helping her care for my grandson Michael and my nephew Bryant.
Rest in Peace my baby sister. You will forever be in my heart and thoughts.