Friday, June 19, 2009

Long time coming

I know, it's been a while hasn't it. Things have just been so crazy around here. There's been a few times I almost lost it, literally. The stress level is so thick sometimes you can cut it with a knife. I actually would get up and leave and not return until it was time to go pick the girls up from school. Things seem to just get worse anymore. Like tomorrow for example. My granddaughter Marissa is leaving for Lee Massachusettes. She's going to spend a week with her biological father. All of a sudden he wants to be a part of this childs life? Dan is hurt, very hurt because Marissa won't be here for Father's Day. To him Marissa is his daughter, she has been for almost her whole 7yrs. Rebecca is so upset Marissa is going away, she let her sleep in her bed with her, and that never happens. Tomorrow this is going to be a houseful of tension and tears, I just know it. And it's going to be a very long week for sure.
Well, the girls are finished with the school year. They both passed to the second grade. Rebecca is on the honor roll again. That's my girl. All A's she got. Marissa got A's and B's. We're very proud of them. Rebecca is reading at a 3rd grade level and doing math, science, social studies at 2nd grade level. Marissa is where she should be in between 1st and 2nd grade levels.
Daniel and Adrianna are doing well. Daniel is almost potty trained thank goodness. Adrianna runs now instead of walking lol. If they put her down for a nap and she doesn't want to take one she yells......mommom. Like I'm gonna save her from taking her nap lol. And as for Daniel he is ready for preschool. He can spell and write his name. He can spell his colors. He counts to 10 in english and 6 in spanish. And he has 3 books that he can actually read word for word. He knows the names of all the shapes. His teacher is going to love him.
Dan's back pain hasn't gotten any better. H'e seeing a pain specialists now who is going to start giving him injections in his spinal cord. If they don't work, it'll be surgery again. So we're hoping and praying all goes well with the injections.
Speaking of surgery, I have made a decision. I decided not to go ahead with the gastro intestinal bypass surgery. I know it's something I need but I can't go through with it. Most of you remember me writing about my niece Sandy who I dreamed died having her baby and 12 days after giving birth she did die, then my father who i dreamed was shot and killed a week later was found floating in creek. Well, I had a dream I was at a funeral and when I walked up to the coffin, it was me laying in it. Well, with my dreams and them coming true, that scared the beejeezers out of me. I can't go through with it, that's what my gut instinct is telling me, don't do it. So, I am going to ask my doctor on my next visit if there is something else we can do besides surgery.
I went out today and bought tons of fresh veggies and fruits, tuna, turkey, water and tomorrow I am going to start a diet...........again. Since school is out now I can get excercise by walking the kids to the park. My sister Lucy said to turn music on and dance. Good idea sis, me and the girls can do that downstairs in my room during the day when the 2 lil ones are asleep.
I haven't been to anyone's blog in a while. I'm sorry about that. I will try soon though to get to each of you. I guess I will go now. I'm too tired to think, lol. I hope your all doing well and you have a wonderful summer.
GOD BLESS

LOVE, CINDY

11 comments:

  1. Oh Cindy I am so pleased that you have come back to give us an update I was so worried about you.
    I think you are probably right not to have the bi-pass...It is a big op and a commitment. I think if you can possibley try to diet again combined with exercise it would be the best bet but again it means a great deal of commitment. I am just as proud as you are of the girls achivement at school. Good on them. also glad that the wee fella is going to be as bright as they are. Please take care and have lots of rest ...between all the exercsise !!,,
    Love Sybil xx

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  2. MY NIECE AHD THE SURGERY AND SHE HAS BEEN IN AND OUT OF THE HOSPITAL SEVERAL TIMES SINCE. SHE FOUND IT HARD TO ONLY EAT THE LITTLE BITTY BIT THAT SHE WAS ABLE TO EAT AND WOULD OVER EAT...MAKING HERSELF SICK.SHE ALSO COULD NOT DRINK ANY COKES OR SUCH...SHE DID LOSE A LOT OF WEIGHT THOUGH....BUT SHE COULD HAVE DONE THAT BY CUTTING DOWN ON HER EATING. I AM AT A PONT IN MY LIFE WHERE I AM GOING TO EAT WHAT I WANT!
    YOU ARE RIGHT O LISTEN TO YOUR DREAM, I BELIEVE IT IS A WARNING.
    LOVE YA,
    CARLENE

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  3. You need to not go on a diet, but completely change how you eat, for good. Diets fail, life changes don't. If you can, join Weight Watchers. It truly will teach you appropriate size portions, what you should be eating, how to add extra's (cake, etc) in while still making it part of your weight loss. Excercise is the other thing, even if it's a simple short walk, doing something every single day, and weekly making it a little more than the week before, even if it's just 30 seconds more.

    Even if you do decide to do the surgery later down the road, you need to have these healthy choices already in tact and a part of your life. Those who don't lose weight with gastric bypass are those who did not 1. do their research. 2. listen to their drs. 3. ignored what they learned, etc.

    Neither option is easy, both involve a great deal of hard physical, mental, and emotional work.

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  4. Cindy,
    Alot going on in your household. Ive learned the hard way by hanging on to everything and trying to fix it.we cant,and we get sick.I know i had ulcers up til two weeks ago when the Loed healed me on a friday nite after being sick for six weeks.Just start praying for peace in your home aand direction.And your grand daughter(is it)n shes very smart.She knows he loves her,he raised her the past 7 yeARS.tHANK YOU FOR STOPPING BY,aND DONT STAY AWAY TO LONG YOU DROP BY ANYTIME

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  5. its me again,Glad you didnt do the by pass.My friend did it and shes so sick.My other friend got a prescription and lost 75 pounds from these pills and shes excercising. Doctor was impressed.will get the name for you,there safe

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  6. I WOULDN'T DO IT EITHER AFTER THAT DREAM!! DIDN'T YOU LOSE 25LBS YOURSELF? KEEP ON DOING THAT AND HAVE ONE DAY A WEEK OFF THE PLAN TO REWARD YOURSELF..IF YOU LOSE 10LBS A MONTH THATS OVER A 100LBS A YEAR!! EASIER TO LOOK AT IT LIKE THAT..I WISH YOU ALL THE BEST AND AM SO HAPPY YOU POSTED!!

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  7. I'm so glad you didn't get the surgery. There are so many complications that can happen. A friend of mine had it and died within 3 days from an embolism. Scary stuff.
    Hope your weekend was good even without Marissa. Glad they are doing so well in school. Don't be s stranger, ok?
    xoxox

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  8. Thanks for stopping by the blog and leaving a comment.

    Hope you are doing well also.

    Daria

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  9. What about the lap band? That's what I'm in the process of getting done.

    It's less invasive. Check it out.

    Have a good week.

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  10. I'm glad that you are paying attention to your dreams.....with your past experiences you have to take them seriously! Take Care Diane aka Lucky Begonia

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  11. Hi Cindy its lovely to here from you at last. The girls are doing so well at school well done to them both its the great teaching they have had from their mommom. I do hope that you have made the right decision for the surgery, only you can do that. If I had had the dream I to would think twice about it. surgery is not for everyone and you have lost a lot of weight on eating the right foods. Cindy do take take of yourself and have fun with the children through th summer holidays. love Kathie.

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