JUST THINKING

 Awwww, this is my daughter Emma when she was 5 1/2 years old in kindergarten. We were living on an army base in FT. Irwin, California at the time and Emma went to school on base. Three and a half years living in the mojave desert was enough for me. I was glad to move back east, lol. Anyways I just wanted to share this picture with you all. She was my first baby. I was 18 1/2 yrs old when I had her. She has grown into a beautiful, loving, caring, giving woman and a great mother to her 3 kids. Emma is 27years old and will be 28 on January 7th.

 

 Then at 40 years old when I thought for sure I was getting the flu, I found out it was because I was pregnant with my second child, Rebecca. Some flu huh, lol. And having a baby at 40. I had 3 doctor's tell me I should get an abortion, because my baby would most likely be born deformed or retarted, or I would miscarry. I told them no fricking way. It has taken me almost 22 years to have another baby after being told I'd never have another child after Emma was born, and there was no way I was going to abort this child. I knew in my heart she would be perfect and she was and is.

I am very proud of my two daughters. Emma grew up to be a wonderful woman with so much love to give, and my Rebecca is just like her. She shows so much love towards Jim and I as her big sister did. I am truely blessed with 2 great kids. And if I had it to do all over again, would I? Your darn tootin I would. LOL. Where is all this coming from? I don't really know. I was sitting here just thinking about my life and how happy I am here to live it. I have a great husband, 2 beautiful kids, 3 beautiful grandchildren. I battled through cancer and I won. I just feel so darn blessed and lucky. I have a wonderful extended family family, and very dear friends both on line and off line. What more could I ask for? Ok yea there is something I really want, and that is to move to a better area where my baby girl can go to a better school. Jim and I have decided that instead of looking for a house when income tax return comes we're just gonnago ahead and get a nice apartment in a nice complex. But I have 2 stipulations on that. 1. It has to be a downstairs apartment, because it is getting harder and harder for me to do steps now, and 2. It has to have a dishwasher, lol. That is a must.

Rebecca woke up this morning with a few more spots. I gave her another dose of Benedryl and Tylenol, put her into a warm oatmeal bath, and she has been fine all day. Tonight before she went to bed I gave her another dose of Benedryl, just in case. She is sound asleep.

Today Jim thought he'd do a good thing and bake some corn muffins. They smelled good and looked good until you went to remove them from the pan, where they crumbled and broke into pieces. He was so upset. He said he followed the directions on the box. I bought 10 boxes of Jiffy Corn Muffin mix. They were 10 for a 1.00. He really wanted corn muffins to go with the roast beef I was fixing for dinner. So, I told him I would make another batch. He doesn't know my secret. I use 2 boxes of the mix, and the milk and eggs it calls for, but I also mix in a cup of flour, and a half teaspoon baking powder along with a 1/3 cup of honey. When they were done, I gave him a nice warm muffin smothered in butter to sample. Man did he have a big smile on his face when he swallowed that first bite. He looked at me and said, From now on honey, you make the muffins, lol. I guess he liked them. He ate 2 more with his dinner tonight. Even Rebecca ate 2 of them today, and she never eats anything like that. I was happy.

Well, I guess that is about it for tonight. I am going to go get into my nightgown, pour a glass of diet pepsi and play some POGO for a while then go to bed. Tomorrow afternoon I am getting some "ME" time. Jim and Rebecca are invited over to one of his friends from work who has 7yr old twin girls to watch the Eagles game. Rebecca is so excited she is going to meet these girls. I know she will have a blast too. Take care all, and I hope your having a great weekend.

(((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

LOVE TO ALL.............................

 

 

Scare

My child gave me a huge scare tonight. She got out of bed and came into the livingroom with her face all red and red blotches all over her sides and back. I thought OMG she has caught that target rash Daniel had. I had nothing here to stop her itching or reduce her fever. I called Emma, told her what was happening. She came over here with all her medications. It isn't the target rash cause there's no bulls eye in the center. Emma asked if she was allergic to anything cause it looks like the same rash Marissa get's when she eats strawberries. I was thinking nothing was different today or tonight that she has eatten. Then Emma asked about soap. It hit me then. While I was cooking dinner tonight, I was also washing dishes. Rebecca would go over to the dishpan and play in the bubbles while I was cooking, and I caught her rubbing them on her face and sides and stomach. Where the red blothes are, is the places she was rubbing the bubbles. It is AJAX lemon dish soap. I think maybe she is allergic to it? Can that be possible? Emma rubbed Cortizone-10 cream on all the red spots, and we gave her Benedryl and Tylenol. About 30 minutes later her face started clearing up and so did the other blotches. There is 2 spots where it is bubbled a little, like when you get a bad sunburn and it bubbles a little before it drys up and peels. Emma stayed about 30 minutes, and in the 30 minutes she was here it cleared up alot. I was freaking out. But I calmed down after Rebecca said she felt alot better. She even asked to go back to bed a few minutes after Emma left. I go in there every 15 minutes and check on her. I won't be sleeping very well tonight, I'll be too worried about Rebecca. If it's still on her in the morning I am taking her to the doctor. He is open saturdays til noon. And they do accept emergency walk ins. Just if you can say a little prayer that it all goes away and she is fine in the morning and she can sleep tonight.

Love to all.................Cindy

Happy Friday

  I am so glad today is friday. This has been a long week. Above are pictures I have taken over the past few days. I just love getting pics of my new granddaughter and all her facial expressions. She is just a sweetheart. I wish she'd grow a little more. She's so tiny and petite. In the pictures she looks bigger, but she's not. She's very tiny. Daniel won't give her kisses. He won't say why, lol. You can see him in the pics playing with his favorite toy. A wooden Thomas trainset. Ang, this kid loves it and after he is done playing he will put it all back, so it doesn't get lost or his big sister touches it, lol. Daniel is 100% well now, from that awful target rash he had. No scars, swelling is gone, and everything is back to normal color and size.

I'm going over there again today. I was going to stay home today, but I have 2 loads of laundry I want to wash, so Emma said bring it on over. So as soon as I make this entry I will be heading out the door.

Well, I hope one of the other schools I filled out paper work for contact me soon. I want Rebecca out of this school. There are 2 boys in her class Sabastion and Joshua, who are the most misbehaved kids I have ever seen. They are rude, ignorant, and have no respect for anyone or anything. They both are in trouble everyday, even the teacher has a hard time controlling them. She has already been kicked by Sabastion. She has sent numerous notes home to the parents and the parents have not yet come to the school about their kids. These are kindergarten kids. If something isn't done now, they will grow up and become even worse. Rebecca has already been pushed down and her stockings torn, jabbed in the face with a pencil, punched in the hand and had her arm twisted. This morning Joshua was in line and pushed a kid who fell into Rebecca but I grabbed her before she hit the ground. Well, I had enough. I grabbed that kids arm and told him one more time he pushes anyone or hits or hurts my daughter ever again I will beat his ass right there and if his mom comes to the school I will also beat her ass for the way she just leaves her child there and does nothing about his behavior. And I held his arm until the teacher came out and I told her what he had done and what Isaid to him. Even a few of the parents who do stay there with their kids said they were going to do the same thing. Out of 25 kids their is only 5 of us parents who stand there with our kids. I told the teacher maybe she should suspend them from her class until the parents show up. She said she is going to talk with the principal about this matter. I told her us parents who do stay there are very upset about these kids behavior with our kids. Each month the kids are given a Behavior Chart that we sign daily. It is graded as: 1 POOR  2 FAIR  3 GOOD and  4 is EXCELLENT. Mrs. Fitzpatrick told me that Rebecca and O'Saka are her only students who get 4's daily. And each friday a student with a perfect behavior chart gets to pick from the prize box. So today Rebecca and O'Saka get to pick a prize.  The past few days Rebecca has had homework and she has done very well. She's gotten all stars on her papers. I am glad to see even with the disruption in her class with these bad kids she still is able to learn and do so well.

My grand daughter Marissa is also doing well in her school. This week she was elected as Star Pupil of the week. I am so proud of her. She loves school, loves her teacher and has made a few friends. Emma filled out paperwork with the school system and Marissa was approved for reduced lunches. So for 2.00 a week Marissa has lunch provided by the school. To me her school seems money hungry. Because they are totally different then from Rebecca's school, where they supply breakfast, lunch and snacks for free.

Next week I am going to buy from the school 2 sweatshirts with the school's name on them for Rebecca for gym class. And I have to go and get her a few long sleeved white shirts from the Rainbow store and some dark blue knee high socks and thick stockings. These little kids have to stand outside in the morning and wait for their teachers to come out and get them, and I do not want my child freezing while standing there waiting.

Well, I guess that is about it for now. Except that I hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the fall weather we are finally having.

 

 

Love to all................................

Tags: D's Designs

Pictures

Thank you Sugar for making me this awesome tag. I love it.

I had a very nice day today. I awakened at 5am but I went back to sleep and slept until 10am. I was so rested. I needed it too. Jim had already made the coffee, fed Rebecca her breakfast. Around 11am we got ready and headed out the door to pick my granddaughter Marissa up. Daniel was asleep, awwwwww. We took the kids to the Castle playground and they had a great time. There wasn't much shade for me to sit in. I got really hot and my throat felt as though it was going to close up on me, so after 2 1/2 hours we had to leave.

Jim took us all to Wendys for lunch. Man that chocolate frosty felt good going down my throat. The girls also enjoyed theirs. Along with their chicken nuggets and french fries with lots of ketchup. They ate every bit of their lunch too. Afterwards we took Marissa home, and came home ourselves. I was so exhausted, mostly from the heat. Poured myself a big glass of cold lemonade sat in the airconditioning and cooled off for a few minutes.

Jim didn't get to the laundry mat yesterday, so he went tonight. While he was at the laundry mat, I gave Rebecca her bath and shampoo'd and conditioned her hair. She was full of sand from the playground sandbox. She got into her jammies and relaxed on the couch watching tv. Jim came home with the laundry and I folded it all. He put the towels in the bathroom on the shelf for me. The rest of the clothes are folded and sitting here in the basket. I will put them away tomorrow.

Rebecca got up at 10pm tonight complaining of a sore throat. Some medicine and cool water and she is back in bed, hopefully she sleeps through the night. This is her third sore throat in the past few months. I hope she doesn't have to have her tonsils out. If her throat still hurts by the end of the day tomorrow I will take her to the doctors.

No school tomorrow due to it being Columbus Day. Rebecca and I are staying home. Jim's gonna take the van to work. Their saying record heat tomorrow, so we will be indoors with the A/C on. I don't have much housework to do tomorrow, so I can spend some time getting caught up on everyone's journals. Yes, I am behind again, but tomorrow I will fix that.

Well, I guess I am going to go to bed now. My back is hurting sitting in this chair. I hope everyone has had a wonderful weekend, and your week goes by without any drama or heartache. So, goodnight all and I will see you in the morning.

Something to share

This was sent to me by a dear friend and I think it is just beautiful, and wanted to share it with you all.

 

Click here: In The Morning Light ~ When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

 

 

Have a wonderful evening.        Cindy

SATURDAY

I am so glad it is saturday. This past week has been very tiring. I have been going to bed before 10pm. Some nights by 9:30, and that just isn't me. I am never in bed before midnight. But my body is tired and it needed sleep. All week long I have been on the go. Running errands, babysitting, cleaning, cooking, back and forth to school with Rebecca. I've had no time for myself at all. The menopause symptoms have been kicking my butt all week with major hot flashes, night sweats. There was moments I just wanted to run away. It was where's this, when's that, do this do that, I wanted to scream and hide. Yesterday while at the pharmacy I checked my blood pressure. 190/110, so back on the meds I went. I also took a Stress Tab too. I feel very calm today.

Jim did alot of cleaning today. He cleaned up the kitchen, did the dishes and mopped the floor. He also cleaned all the fans, took out the trash and later he is going to the laundry mat. Tomorrow we are picking up Marissa and Daniel and taking them to a playground that looks like a castle and has a huge sand box and letting them play. Then we're taking them to lunch. I'll take lots of pictures to share with you all.

My son in law went to the doctor's. He was really hurting and feeling very run down. The doctor said Dan has every symptom of LYME Disease, and ordered blood work. He finds out the results this up coming week. He gave Dan pain killers and antibiotics to take until then. Dan thinks a tick bit him on the ankle when he was in New Jersey at a BBQ.

We are now up to 307 murders in the city of Philadelphia. Sickening isn't it? City of brotherly love. Yea right, so why they killing each other. A 4yr old child was shot and killed just 3 blocks from my house by a drive by shooting. How sad, we can't even let our children play outdoors without fear of them being kidnapped or killed.

Well, that's about it. I am being rushed. I have to go to the store for dinner fixings. And I really don't feel like it. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.

Love to all............................

 

Still here

Just want to say hi and let you know I am still here. I just been so busy the past few days. Sorry to hear Penny has passed on. But I truely believe that lovely lady is in heaven spreading her wings and singing with the angels. I will probably not make a decent entry till the weekend. I have been trying to get caught up on journals though. I have quite a few more to read and comment, so if I haven't visited you I will soon. Gotta go now. Have a great day.

Love you all....................CINDY