My Beautiful Sister

I have come here tonight with sad news. It is so hard for me to write this right now, because I have been crying my eyes out for hours now. My dear sister Susie who got me to journal here in jland, passed away last night. I won't go into details yet, because I want permission from her husband first. She was only 34 years old. She left behind 2 beautiful little girls, and her husband. My body is numb. I just can't believe she is gone. I just wrote to her a couple weeks ago, and hadn't heard back from her yet, now I never will. To my sister Susie, Rest in Peace sweetie. I love you so much, and I will miss you.

I ask for your prayers for her husband and their daughters and for me too. I can't understand why it was her time, she was so young.

 

Love,

Cindy

Farewell to the Sands

This video is a tribute to one of the best casino's I ever had the pleasure of visiting. It is the Sands casino, that was located in Atlantic City, New Jersey. I went there for the first time when it just opened and I walked in with 30.00 to gamble with and walked out with 250.00 in winnings. The link below is the celebration of the casino being taken down to make room for an even bigger casino. The video is full of music and fireworks and at the end it shows the coming down of the building. It is 8 minutes long, but so worth the watching. Click on the link and when the page comes up, click the Enlarge button above the bigger screen with the advertisement so you can get a better view.

cbs3.com - Video Library

More for the kids.

Here's a few more sites I found for the kids. I even found some things I'd like to color too. Yea, I know what can I say? I'm a big kid too, lol.

 

 

Autumn Preschool Activities and Crafts

Holidays and Events Preschool Activities and Crafts

Turkey Coloring Page | Pilgrim Theme | Thanksgiving | Preschool Printable Activities

Alphabet Letter C Candy Corn Zaner-Bloser Manuscript Handwriting Practice Worksheet - Preschool Printables

Feeling better

Hello, everyone. I am feeling alot better today. I want to thank everyone for your wonderful comments and advice with my last entry. You guys are just awesome, and really know how to make a person feel better about themself.

Well, let's see, what have I been up too the past 48 hours? I got caught up on journals. I have about 10 left, but those are from last night and this morning. I did have 161 journal alerts, lol. Not complaining though. I love reading about all of you. Your all like my family and when your sad I am sad, when your hurt I am hurt.

I left Rebecca home from school yesterday. I didn't want to chance driving the van with the brake making so much noise. Jim finally replaced the brake on the drivers side last night. He said there was nothing left on the brake pad, the caliper is fine, but we need a new rotor. It is all chewed up inside and will never pass inspection. So it looks like we'll be investing in a rotor real soon. Jim's outside right now replacing the other side's brakes. He knows I complain if something is wrong with our vehicle and he had better fix it, lol.

So Rebecca and I stayed home, and colored, cleaned up her toys, watched a movie about a mountain man and his white wolf. She enjoyed the movie as much as I did, or maybe it was just the popcorn I made, lol. Later my daughter Emma came over and took me grocery shopping. This time we went to SHOPRITE, instead of ACME or SHOPNBAG. I spent 161.00, yikes, lol. But my shopping cart was filled to the top. I can't say much for their produce prices, they are expensive. But their cold cuts, cheap. At ACME I pay 8.99 a pound for Virginia Baked Ham, but at SHOPRITE it was 5.99 a pound. It is Rebecca's favorite ham. Wheat bread, 99 cents a loaf. The best deal was the London Broils. I bought 2 of them. One for 2.64, and the other for 3.18. Another bargain which is Rebecca's favorite is Campbell's Tomato soup, 5 can's for 2.00, and Cheerios for 1.99 a box. Both are packaged in Breast Cancer awareness colors. Part of the sale is given towards the research to find a cure. I'll take a picture of the Tomato soup labels and post it. The labels are pink instead of red. So cute. I usedEmma's shoprite discount card, and with her purchases and mine, we got a certificate for a free turkey or ham. So we will get a ham, to go along with a turkey for Thanksgiving dinner. I always make a turkey and a ham. And all the fixings to go with both. Same thing for christmas too.

When we got outside to go to the car, the sky opened up and it started pouring. Emma went and got the car and brought it up to the store so we could load up our groceries. She helped me carry them all upstairs and then she left to go home. Rebecca helped me put away the groceries. She knows exactly where everything goes too, lol. I do the freezer items though. Then I fixed her a sandwich and she had some grapes and a glass of milk, watched a little tv and into her jammies and bed she went. Around 9:pm we were hit with strong winds and heavy downpours of rain with a little lightning too.

We had to use the airconditioning last night. It was so hot and humid. 85 degree's in my apartment. I cannot sleep when it is that hot in my bedroom. I would not be able to breathe. Storm must of knocked out verizon cause I lost my DSL last night. It just would not reconnect. So I shut down the computer, and turned it back on 5:30 this morning and it was working again.

I watched 2 great shows last night. The first was Lisa Williams show. Wow, is she good. I would love to talk to her about my Dad and maybe find out what really happened in his death. My gut still tells me he was murdered and that an accidental drowning was not what really happened. I forgot the name of the second show, but it was also on Lifetime, and was 4 Psychics who had to guess different things, such as who was an excon, what happened in a hotel room and who's dog belonged to who. I loved both those shows. I will definately be watching them again. CSI on thursday night was awesome. She said yes, I was so happy I wanted to email Lisa and tell her, but didn't want to spoil her hearing it on the show. LOL.

Today I am feeling happy. At around noon my baby granddaughter Adrianna is coming over and staying for a few hours. I love cuddling her in my arms. Jim is happy she's coming over. He doesn't get to see her as much. Rebecca asked if she could hold the baby again. I will let her and I'll take pictures of her holding the baby. She really loves her new niece.

Jim just left to go to Target. He is picking up a black ink cartridge for my printer, batteries for my camera and computer mouse, and a big box of crayola crayons for Rebecca. This kid goes through crayons like water, jeez.

Well, I better get my butt up and get dressed. I'm still in my jammies, lol. I want to clean my kitchen before the baby gets here. I hope you all have a great weekend.

Just wanted also to ask for prayers for those here in need of them. Sugar, that her mattress comes soon. Jeannette and her grandson Daniel, for good health, Angie for her burnt buns and that it isn't so painful when she sits down, lol. Jeanne for her foot and her daughter Kelly for her knee, and Lisa for her MS and the pain it is causing her. I know there are so many more in need of these prayers, and believe me I pray for everyone here in Jland every day.

I better go now. I am getting hungry, haven't had breakfast yet.

 

Love to all.............................

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Slumpy Frumpy Feeling

  I am going to try to make an attempt to write this entry. All this week so far, I've been kind of down. I do not know exactly why. Tired maybe. Depressed maybe, who knows. I have no energy level, zilch, nada, none. I force myself to get up and do anything. I have gone over my daughter Emma's a couple times this week, and you all know how much I love my grandson, but going there has even been annoying me. Noise, everywhere, maybe I am just wanting some alone time, some quiet time away from everyone. Health wise I feel fine, it's just this BLAHHHHHHHH feeling that I can't shake. I had someone tell me that maybe if I got up and moved around more I would feel better. Ok, easier said then done. I have one good lung, the other one in bad condition from chemo. I have limited use of my right arm caused by nerves severed during my surgery to remove the 4 tumors and 4 lympnodes in my right side of my neck. In 1994 I was living in Wyoming and was involved in an accident. I was parked, and some idiot peeled wheels in reverse and slammed into the front of my car, totaling my car and throwing me into the steering wheel breaking my glasses, and with my feet automatically stepping on brakes even though my car was in park, I pushed my right leg up into my hip joint about half an inch and my left leg has been numb between my thigh and knee since then. I stand up for more then 10 minutes I feel as though I have been severed at the waist and want to fall over. Not to mention when I am in pain, I get stressed and my neck tightens making me feel as though I am choking and gasping for air. Just standing at my kitchen sink washing dishes is a major task for me. I sometimes stay home from functions because I feel as though I'd be a burden if I went. Like Jim taking Rebecca to the park. I have to sit down most of the time there if I go. What hurts the most are the whispers and the stares I get when I do go out. Both coming from adults and children. Whispers like, If she lost weight she wouldn't need a cane, or OMG look at that scar on her neck. Sometimes I just wanna yell, SHUT UP to these people whispering about me, but also sometimes I just wanna go off and have a good cry. Sometimes I ask myself, Why me? Why do I have to go through all this when all I have ever done was help people? I've never asked to be paid back from any of those I helped. Even though I go through all this on a daily basis I still force myself to do for others. I will still help when asked. I will always be there if I am needed. Oh well, life goes on right?

Jim has to check out the front drivers side brakes when he gets home from work. It is grinding and making a loud noise. He said it probably needs brake pads. I hope that is all it is. He's gonna pick them up on his lunch break today and replace the pads when he gets home. He's an excellent mechanic, and I don't want no other person working on our vehicles.

Jims friend Brian (co-worker) said his SIL is looking for a place to move. So when she moves out Brian said we could rent the house she is in. It is in Trevose, PA. A very good neighborhood, great schools. I am keeping my fingers crossed she finds a place soon. I really need to move. Keep your fingers crossed she moves.

Rebecca has a substitute teacher today. An older teacher. She is a sweet lady, but I think after today she won't be a substitute again for Rebecca's class, lol. There is about 8 kids in this class who are terrors. They won't listen, sit, be quiet, stop hitting others for no one. There was 3 kids dismissed from school for lack of immunizations. They still aren't back in school. The parents of the terrors have not come to school about their childs behavior. They have until tomorrow, and then those children will be suspended until the parent comes in. No phone calls will be accepted, the teacher wants to meet with them face to face. Otherwise she has no choice but to expell them from her class permanently. This morning I watched this one kid walk right up to another kid in another clasroom line and hit him in the face for no reason. Then he went over to a kid in his own class and pushed him down and kicked him. I yelled, knock it off and get in line. He looked up and said F---K you lady. OMG, I wanted to whoop his ass. I am going to talk to the teacher tomorrow when she comes back. She's been hinting how she has no aid to help her in the classroom. I am going to volunteer myself 3 days a week to help her in the classroom. Maybe it would help me get out of my frumpy feeling. And also give me a peace of mind those 3 days that my child is ok.

Well, I guess that's about it for now. I am going to go and try to do up the dishes before I have to leave to go pick up Rebecca from school. I hope everyone is enjoying their day. Tomorrow they are calling for heavy rain and thunder storms for Philadelphia. Yea, I love it. Keeps the bad eggs indoors in the neighborhood. Speaking of that. Last night, the spy chopper and numerous police cars were in alley behind my house last night. They caught a guy who had just shot someone. Sick people in this city. And tuesday morning a Septa bus, ran a lady over. She is ok, he ran over her legs. But I se a law suit coming against Septa for sure. In case you want to know what Septa is, they are big public transportation buses.

OK, gonna go.

Love to all........................CINDY

My baby is sick

First I would like to apologize to you for not getting to your journals the past few days. I have been busy, had a major migrain, and now I have a sick child home from school today. Rebecca woke me up at 12:30 last night. She had gotten sick all over her bed and herself. So, I had to wash her down and change her, change her linens and wash down her bed. Get her settled back into bed. She woke up at 7:15, covered all over on her stomach with that hives rash again and a fever. I gave her the meds and in 20 minutes she was fine, but I still kept her home. I called the doctor and described what has been going on. He says Rebecca's body is trying to get the chicken pox, but her immune system is fighting it off. It should pass soon and she would be fine. But he said if by the end of next week if it is continuing to bring her in and not bother making an appointment, just come in. He also said to continue the Benedryl and Tylenol like I have been doing. I've been giving her iced water all morning, she said it makes her feel cool.

So, I may not get to your journals today either, because Rebecca is keeping me busy tending to her. I have these few minutes to type this because she is drinking iced water and watching a cartoon. OOps there she went and spilled her water, be right back. Ok I am back but I am going to go now. Please say a prayer for her, and one for me that I can make it through this day. LOL

I will get to your journals soon, I promise. I have kept all of them.

 

LOVE:         CINDY

FOR THE KIDS

JUST THOUGHT I'D SHARE WITH YOU SOME PRINTABLE COLORING PAGES, AND CONNECT THE DOTS PAGES I FOUND AND HAVE BEEN PRINTING OUT FOR REBECCA, MARISSA AND DANIEL. THEY ARE HAVING A GREAT TIME COLORING THESE PAGES. CLICK ON THE LINKS BELOW.

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Vampire Coloring Pages

Autumn

Jack-o'-Lantern

 

Preschool learning activity - Color by Numbers

 

 

Preschool activity

Connect the dots

 

Free printable halloween coloring page

 

Halloween coloring sheets - 016