I am really worried about my daughter Emma. This poor girl has been through so much the past few weeks. Today she finally broke down in tears, then she got me crying. Emma is 28 years old, married and has 3 wonderful children. For those of you who read this journal already know, Dan took a bad fall at work and was seriously hurt. He himself cried to me today, saying how worried he is about Emma and the kids, and how he feels so useless to them. I told him to just concentrate on getting better, because when he is home everyone is happy. I promised him I would spend more time at the house with Emma and the kids while he is away getting better. But Emma is drained. Emotionally and physically drained. I am worried she is heading for a nervous breakdown. She has 3 kids to worry about, a house to run, Dan in the hospital, and the other day she had to throw Dan's brother Bill out. He has been living with them for over a year and doesn't work. He babysits, does dishes and cooks, but then he went and stole money from Emma that the other brothers put in an envelope and told Bill to give it to Emma. Instead he went to a bar where they have a slot machine and fed that slot machine and then tried to blame it on my nephew Eddie. Well my nephew and Emma are just not cousins, they are best friends and Eddie would do anything in the world for Emma. Eddie is staying with Emma now, he works, pays Emma rent, washes the dishes and cooks dinner. He's a good cook. He even babysits. He has 2 kids of his own, so he knows how to take care of lil ones. He will be 28 in October. Emma and Eddie are exactly 10 month's apart. I am glad he is there. I was worried about Emma being alone at night's with just the kids there. Eddie told me no one will hurt Emma or those babies while he is there. But as for Emma crying like that. That scared me. I have never heard her cry like that since she lost her son Michael to stillborn in 1998. Tonight I am going to take her out shopping for a new vacuum, and tomorrow take her to Hollywood Tan where she has a membership so she can get a tan which she hasn't done in a while. I am going to take the day off from school tomorrow and spend the day with her just talking. I don't know what else I can do. Any idea's. I know she needs adult conversation. Being around lil kids all day can get to you eventually. As her Mom I am at a loss. I don't know what else I can do for her to bring her some happiness that she needsright now. I owe her my life. If it weren't for her caring for me and pushing me I'd of given up the chemo treatments. Yes, I admit it. Halfway into the treatments I was so sick and just wanted to give up but she got on me about it and made me finish. And for that I am so greatful to her. She's not just my daughter, she is my bestfriend. I love her with my whole heart.
I guess I ranted on enough. It is after 1pm and I am still in my pajamas. I need to get dressed, fix lunch for Rebecca and Marissa and wait for Emma to call me when she's ready to go shopping. Please say a little prayer for her.
Note: I spoke with Dan earlier. He is doing great, walking all over and feeling alot better. He says maybe by the end of this coming week he will be ready to come home and start physical therapy.
Love to all.........CINDY