I had a nice long talk with my SIL and daughter Emma today. With what Emma told me and with what Dan tried to tell me, I feel there's something wrong with Dan emotionally and mentally. Here is a list of what they told me and what I witnessed personally.
No appetite, you have to make him eat something.
Last night Emma said he was freaking out about his back itching. He kept yelling please someone please kill me now. Stop the itching please stop the itching.
Whats on my back? Get it off, get it off now.
He is sweating so bad he has to keep changing his clothes.
Sleep is a big problem for him, he's having a real hard time sleeping nights.
He cries at the drop of a dime. He continuously tells Emma he is sorry when she does something for him. He has it in his head that Emma is going to leave him and she is not.
He puts himself down all the time. Says he doesn't feel like a man anymore, and he doesn't like himself.
He is taking 5mg valium every 4 hours for muscle spasm's and 20mg percoset every 4 hours for pain. To me I think it is entirely too much medication.
Last night his actions scared Emma to the point where she wanted to call 911. Thankfully though he calmed down and finally fell asleep. Emma is going to see how he is tonight, and if he's not anybetter, she is going to commit him into friends hospital for a psychiatric evaluation. I don't have a medical degree, but in my opinion I feel he is suffering from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
He can be sitting down and get a feeling that he is falling. He will start shaking, speech gets all messed up and it's like he is in a trance for a few seconds.
I think maybe he needs to see a professional therapist. Another thing that is bothering him is the fact his mother hasn't called or came over to see him. This hurts Dan deeply. His brothers have not been over to see him, but they will call and send money over to Emma for things she needs.
Dan and I talk alot. He knows he can come to me and talk to me about everything and anything. Today I made him a tuna on toast with lettuce and tomato and he ate the whole thing. He told me in his heart I am his Mom, because I am there everyday helping Emma to take care of him and the kids. Dan allowed me to check his incisions tonight and to put a cooling gel on his back to relieve some of the itching. The itching is caused by the surgical tape strips on his back. Once they fall off the itching will go away. I asked Dan if I could photograph his back. He said yes and gave me permission to put it here in my journal. He said you guys have followed this since the beginning and he doesn't want to keep anything from you all. He also said thank you again for the cards. Each card brought tears to his eyes knowing you all cared for him. And he said your prayers are working, and to please continue praying for him. So here is what the back surgery left.
He goes to see his doctor on thursday, and in 2 weeks he starts physical therapy. I guess I will go now. I am exhausted and gotta get up early.
Love to all.............CINDY