Thursday, July 19, 2007

NO WORD YET

NO WORD YET ON WHAT'S GOING ON WITH EMMA. SHE TOLD ME SHE WOKE UP WITH LOWER BACK PAIN, THAT SPREAD TO HIPS, STOMACH AND PELVIC AREA. THE PAIN BEING SO BAD SHE WAS SWEATING. THEN AMNIO FLUID STARTED LEAKING. SHE CHANGED HER CLOTHES QUITE A FEW TIMES, DUE TO LEAKING. SHE CALLED HER OB/GYN AND TOLD HIM WHAT IS GOING ON AND HE SAID GO TO HOSPITAL. HE WILL MEET HER THERE. EMMA CALLED DAN AT WORK AND SAID GET HOME NOW.

DAN STOPPED HERE AND GOT MY CELLPHONE, CAMERA, SOME CASH AND I GAVE HIM MY VISA CARD, SO HE CAN EAT IF HE'LL BE THERE LATE. I GAVE HIM MY CAMERA JUST IN CASE THE BABY WAS TAKEN BY C-SECTION TODAY. EMMA IS JUST A FEW DAYS SHY OF BEING 30 WEEKS PREGNANT. I THINK BY NOW THE BABY HAS FULLY DEVELOPED LUNGS. AT LEAST I HOPE SHE DOES.

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR PRAYERS. IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME KNOWING MY DAUGHTER HAS SO MANY PEOPLE PRAYING FOR HER. SHE TOLD ME, MOM PUT ME AND THE BABY IN YOUR JOURNAL AND ASK FOR PRAYERS FOR US, SO THAT'S WHAT I DID. SO THANK YOU EVERYONE.

NEEDLESS TO SAY, I AM A NERVOUS WRECK RIGHT NOW. I HAVE SO MUCH I SHOULD BE DOING AND CAN'T GET MYSELF MOTIVATED TO DO ANY OF IT. THE SKY IS STARTING TO GET DARK WHICH MEANS THE STORMS ARE COMING SOON.

MOST OF YOU ALREADY KNOW THIS, BUT IN 1998 MY FIRST GRANDCHILD WAS BORN, MICHAEL JOSEPH. 2 DAYS BEFORE HIS BIRTH, HE WAS FINE. GOOD STRONG HEARTBEAT, MOVING AROUND IN EMMAS BELLY. 2 DAYS LATER NO HEARTBEAT AND HE WAS DELIVERED BY EMERGENCY C-SECTION. HE WAS STILLBORN. HE WAS 9LBS 5OZ AND 22 INCHES LONG. THEY SAID HE SUFFOCATED IN WOMB. WHAT GOT ME WAS 2 DAYS BEFORE HE DIED, THE DOCTOR WAS GIVING EMMA PERTOSSIN FOR ALMOST 17 HOURS AND SHE WOULDN'T DIALATE OR GO INTO LABOR, SO HE SENT HER HOME. SENT HER HOME???? HE SHOULD OF GIVEN HER A C-SECTION AND MY GRANDSON WOULD PROBABLY BE ALIVE TODAY. I HELD MY DEAD GRANDSON IN MY ARMS FOR HOURS AND I CRIED AND PRAYED. I TOLD GOD LET HIM BREATHE AND TAKE ME INSTEAD, BUT IT DIDN'T HAPPEN. I CARRIED MY DAUGHTERS SON INTO HER ROOM AND PLACED HER DEAD BABY BOY IN HER ARMS. ALL SHE KEPT SAYING IS, MOM MAKE HIM BREATHE, MAKE HIM BREATHE, AND I FELT I LET HER DOWN. IT WAS LITERALLY RIPPING MY HEART APART KNOWING THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO. I FELT LIKE I HAD FAILED HER AS A MOTHER. SO NOW EACH TIME SHE IS PREGNANT, I AM SCARED TO DEATH. AND I DO A WHOLE LOT OF PRAYING.

THIS BABY SHE IS CARRYING NOW IS ALREADY SO VERY LOVED. I KNOW EMMA IS A NERVOUS WRECK ALSO. SHE IS WORRIED TOO. BUT SHE HAS A GOOD DOCTOR, IS AT A VERY GOOD HOSPITAL, AND HAS SO MANY PEOPLE PRAYING FOR HER.

I THINK I WILL GO NOW AND TRY TO GET AT LEAST THE DISHES WASHED. AS SOON AS I HEAR ANYTHING I WILL COME BACK HERE AND UPDATE YOU. KEEP THE PRAYERS FOR HER GOING PLEASE.

THANK YOU SUGAR FOR ADDING EMMA TO YOUR JOURNAL FOR PRAYERS. YOU ARE SUCH A GREAT FRIEND.

I LOVE YOU ALL.............CINDY

 

16 comments:

  1. I've been thinking of Emma all afternoon!  She's in my prayers.
    Missie

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  2. PRAYERS SENT ....God will be watching over it all, it's in his hands ....
    love you!  

    patty

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  3. I have been praying in my head since I heard this. 30 weeks the lungs are formed. Babies have lived being born earlier then that. We all must think positive.
    your in my thoughts sis
    Love
    Ang

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  4. I hope and pray the baby is ok. Maybe they'll put her on total bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy 'cause she went into early labor. I took care of a lady in nursing school like that. I remember she couldn't even get up to go potty. Nobody had washed her hair the whole time. So I put her on a gurney, wheeled her to the sinks where the Docs wash up before surgery, and washed her hair in that sink just like in a salon!
    So lets pray that they can stop the contractions, and keep that baby safe!
    Love you,
    Pam

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  5. emma will be fine cindy. i will keep her in my prayers. try to relax. god is on your side. kisses and hugs

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  6. This must be the most distressing time for you. I am thinking of you all and praying as hard as I can.
    Hugs Gaz xxxx

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  7. oh, may God please help your grandbaby and Emma.  I'm so sorry.

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  8. I am  praying  thousan fold everything goes well I know the feeling as  I lost my twin grandchildren in the same way 9 yrs ago now and I never thought I would get over it.My heart was broken in a thousand pieces and it took me many yrs to get well.Little girl and little boy.Kirsty and Joshua my daughter named them.They were beautiful.I do so hope everything will be fine.Take Care God Bless KATH
    astoriasand http://journals.aol.co.uk/astoriasand/MYSIMPLERHYMES

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  9. oh yes, let us know right away.  and of course, I will be praying for emma and her little one.  
    take care
    tina

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  10. I am saying prayers for Emma and the baby. I hope by now that decisions have been made and that all is well.  Sugar sent me over.  with Love from the UK.  Sybilsybil45

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  11. seraphoflove9001July 19, 2007 at 2:52 PM

    May God put His hands on both of them....keeping prayers going.
    Lisa

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  12. i cannot imagine loosing a child like that
    i hope that emma is ok
    em

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  13. My prayers are with all of you at this difficult time. We can never understand why things happen as they do, so sorry of Emmas first lost...may this turn out to be a healthy baby & may she have a swift recovery.
    God bless,
    Sugar

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  14. I am praying and waiting for news from you.  I cannot imagine the pain that Emma went through when she lost her first baby, but I have complete faith that this little girl is going to come into the world completely healthy and totally loved and adored.

    Please let me know when you know something,.

    ((hugs))
    Jeanne

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  15. Prayers for you all.
    Delaine

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  16. ally123130585918July 20, 2007 at 1:21 AM

    My thoughts and prayers are with you all ~ keep us updated Cindy ~ Ally x
    http://journals.aol.co.uk/ally123130585918/Lifewithally

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