Thursday, July 20, 2006

Careful Consideration

After some serious soul searching and careful consideration, I decided not to write the letter to my daughter. I felt hearing the words in my own voice would make it more meaningful. So, I called my daughter. I told her my feelings about everything that has been going on. I told her how disappointed I was, how sad it's all made me and how much she was breaking my heart. And I told her I loved her very much! We had a long talk. We got rid of all the tension between us, and I am so happy about that. When we had hung up, I felt so relieved finally. I knew my baby did'nt hate me. She's my first born, my little mommy's girl. I am actually gonna walk my sore tired body over to her place tomorrow and visit with my grandchildren. Emma said my lil man' Daniel is walking now. He walks like a little penguin, lol. I can't wait to see him, it's been a month since I last saw him.

Tonight I needed to go to the store, so Emma came over. The only store open at that time was the ACME, where I was at when it was robbed. I told Emma I will go there, but she has to stay near me at all times. My heart was racing as we went through the doors. First thing I saw upon entering was a uniformed security guard. I felt a little at ease, but as we were walking around getting our items believe you me my eyes were alert to all surroundings. And my cellphone was in hand. We got what we needed, checked out and left. My heart did'nt stop racing til we were out of that parking lot.

As to Emma's health, she is on a medication called Bentyl/Dicyclomine. Apparently it is a pain medication and a medication to help break up the kidney stone making it easier to pass. Emma then informed me that the doctor told her something else, that really has me terrified. While performing the cat scan a mass was found on one of her ovaries. It looks to be like a cyst or a tumor, and he wants her to see a gynocologists immediately. That has me scared, because my mother died in 1970 of cervical cancer, I've had cancer and Emma has already had 128 pallops removed from her cervix a few years ago. They were'nt cancer thank god, but if left untreated they could of been. I hope and pray the thing on her ovary is just a cyst.

Well, that's about it for tonight. I will let you know all about my grandson tomorrow. And yes I'm taking my camera.

              God Bless you all

11 comments:

  1. 3 WORDS FOR YA GIRLY....YOU BETTER BE....i want pictures of our little guy.....and please keep me informed on my neice...give the kids hugsand kisses tellthem thataunt nancy lovesthem...and  please give emm a hug from her unclepaul and me... love ya girl ..nancy

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  2. hope you enjoy your visit tomorrow with your grandchildren :) glad you got a chance to talk things out with your daughter and clear the air

    betty

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  3. Can't be too careful these days when going out! Sad!!! :(
    Will cont to hold your dtr in prayer. I had ovarian cysts removed many yrs ago, they found them as they were removing my appendix!
    Have a nice weekend.
    Blessings,
    Sugar

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  4. i have had cysts and they do get huge. glad you get to see the kids:) your postcard is on its way i loved yours got it today:) what a pretty city at night

    Deb

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  5. Thinking of you, your daughter and grandchildren! Please keep us posted!
    Sharon

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  6. ally123130585918July 21, 2006 at 4:30 AM

    Glad you got to have that conversation with your daughter ~ and nice one that you will be seeing her and the grand children ~Hope Emma will be OK ~ Ally

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  7. I'm so glad you were able to talk to your daughter.  I will keep her in my prayers over the growth on her ovaries.  Have a good weekend.
    Missie

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  8. I am so glad that you and your daughter cleared the air.  Sounds like she is going to need your support right now.  I dont blame you for being worried, with the cancer history in the fmaily and the polyps she has already had removed.  But, dont panic yet.  It could be just cysts, which are very common and they can become quite large too.  I have even heard that when they get to the point where they are about to rupture, that they cause severe abdominal pain.  This could be exactly what she was experiencing.  My mother is on Bentyl for Irritable Bowel Syndrome, and it is helping her.  

    Enjoy your grandchildren!

    Hugs,
    Lorraine

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  9. I will be praying for Emma. I'm so glad you called her and talked. Can't wait to see the pictures of your grandchildren. How exciting you can see the little guy walking.  Have a great time.

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  10. I will keep you and your kids in my prayers and thoughts. So much going on and i am glad that you called your daughter and worked it out!
    hugs,
    lisa

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  11. Aww.. Cindy I hope Emma is fine. So glad you're going to see your grandson and even more wonderful news that you and Emma worked things out. I told you to give it time.
    Take care, Chrissie

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