I just want to thank you all for allowing me to vent my frustrations in my previous entry today. I just needed to let it out, ya know? It just bother's me so much, because I'm usually the one who fixes the problems in the family, and I don't know how to fix what is going on now. It sort of makes me feel like I am letting my family down. My daughter Rebecca for days now has seen all these toys advertised on television and keeps saying, Mommy, I want that!!! And it has been breaking my heart knowing I may not be able to get her those things. How do you tell your 5 year child, I'm sorry honey, but Santa isn't coming this year. Oh my God, I wanna cry right now. Jim got a letter today from unemployment. In it was enclosed a "PIN" number. Everyone keeps telling me that if you receive such a letter as that, you are getting the unemployment. So, we shall see if that is so. He has to call the toll free number, follow instructions, give SS# and PIN # on sunday. If it goes through, he should receive a check on thursday or friday. I pray it goes through. It would help so much.
On another note, I applied for SSI today. I've had cancer, I'm in remission, I can't breathe very well, I have loss of feeling and sensations in my body, I can't stand for long periods of time, etc, etc, etc. I have to get Jim to make a copy of my birth certificate. I am to mail that along with the names, addresses and phone numbers of all 9 of my doctor's to the social security office here in Philadelphia. Then wait to hear from them, which they say could be as long as 4 to 6 month's before I hear anything. If I am approved for SSI, I will be so happy. It would really help to get us out of debt. I could pay off all these doctor and hospital bill's from my surgeries and treatments. I also applied for the medicaid that I can get with it. People tell me it could take a year or more to be approved, and if I'm not I can get a lawyer who specializes in SS cases to help me get approved. I really hope it doesn't come down to that. For all of you who have been keeping me and my family in your prayer's, this is for you.
I do not know what I would do without all of you. It's so nice knowing I have so many friends who really care about me. I really love you all. Your my extended family, which is what I tell everyone when I speak of Jland.
My Rebecca is feeling much better. No more throwing up, but she still had diareha earlier tonight, but not as bad. She even ate some dinner, few tater tots, carrot and celery sticks. She didn't want any chicken tenders I made for her. And she ate a half slice of bread and butter. She kept it down, which I was very happy about. I don't like my baby being sick. Soon after dinner tonight, Jim started feeling sick. He was in and out of the bathroom a dozen times within 30 minutes. He went to bed at 8:pm right along with Rebecca. I hope their both 100% better tomorrow. Uncle Joe went and signed the loan papers to get his new truck. As soon as he get's it, his 1995 Chevy Blazer is our's. He said we can make payment's of 100.00 a month. Which is ok with me. At least I'll have a vehicle again. I really hate not having a car, it sucks. I have been driving for 30 years and it feels so strange not being able to get in my car and go when I want too. So, thank you Uncle Joe.
Well, guess that's about all there is to write about on my end. Please keep my family and I in your prayer's. Hopefully good news is just around the corner. I sure hope so!!! Have a great evening everyone.